I see him . yay!

Once and for all, I finally got to see the friend I miss the most. He changes a lot physically as well as mentally. Well, I can't never blame the nature. People changes when they encounter the new world of adulthood. As for me, I hope to change into someone stronger in terms of emotional as well as physical. Girl power baby!

See, I didn't look for anything that is hard to get. I just hope to see my best friend, and today I just did. He looked stunning. Well do you think stunning could be for boys?? Anyhow, I am not going about the fact that I met someone I really miss, but I will blab some occurence at school. It was A Hari Guru EVENT.

First and the last time I am attending this kind of event. I don't know abt the future. The reason why I never attended this type of event is mainly because I am too stingy to buy any giftsfor the teachers. Well, not that I am saying that teachers want we to give presents to them, but I envy looking at friends, who have a lot of nice wrapping boxes with them, maybe its a girl feeling.

I didn't buy anything for my dear teachers. I made some cards, which I managed to give to one. My lovely Ustazah Ameenah. Cards are hard to make these days, since I am not very good in art stuff. So whatever it is, I still managed to show my last gratitude while I am still a student of the proud school of SMK Kajang Utama.

In this last Hari guru, I was attempted to become the emcee for the final event at the hall. Mokhtar and I took the challenge. Well, the teachers wanted the prefects to handle it. So there were we. In fact, we hadn't had the chance to rehearse due to the hectic examination week. The event went a bit chaos, when I was being accused of making technical defects g during my present at the stage. They even said I was "menyinggung hati guru" ?? What??! Did I? I didn't even remember. I was so frustrated. I just told them who was my favourite teacher. They even blamed me when the prizes given to teachers didn't went smoothly as they wanted. Great, BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING! I am DUMB but still you people searching for me

:[ RIGHT?

Nevertheless, I think I had done my job pretty well. I never be an emcee before, so I think I did pretty nice. A thumb up for me:] I also grateful to have Mokhtar. He is such a help. At least someone soothens my heart a bit. So Chao

ITS a cruel world after all

Note that the above title was published here because I am now tortured. Not tortured by some step mother or step father, or alike, but the mid year examination. Its not the questions that torture me entirely. But, its me. I am torturing myself.

The questions weren't hard. They were tricky. I think I will not be able to attain all Aces this round. Because, the life I am pursuing is like a bowling ball. It rolls. That what it does. So now my life is assumed to be the bowling ball's base. I am at the bottom.

Frankly, I could not answer my questions properly because I simply don't really practice the good way of studying. I am just too lazy and sleepy to study currently. My bio papers were horrible said the teachers. And all I could do is sit back and try to compose myself. Where is the real me!?

Today I had a blast for Chemistry paper II, I dont even understand the diagram given as well as the experiments very well on hydrocarbon. At last, I attempted the questions like a normal kid, which meant I simply 'tembak'. For math paper I, I didn't have enough time to calculate and recheck. Probably because I didn't do much of the exercises, till all my expertise became blurred out. All I can now is sigh.

Teachers on the other hand, kept asking me for the proposal for the badminton tournament. Which I simply didnt do it yet. I am busy, too busy juggling with my tired eyes and books. Haih...what a luck..

I'm blurred

It had been a tough week. I will be remembering May 2009 as one of my worst month ever. First thing which made it worst is because of the exam which is yet to finish. I have got so many papers of long hours to deal with. I feel terrible. Still feeling like throwing up.

For my biology paper III, my biology teacher told me that I was answering it like a dumb, or in other word my answers are blurring. I don't know. I was not concentrating with my exam lately. There have been so many things inside the head, and yes, people never asked whether I need someone to let all of the things out. People just didn't care about me.

I used to love the examination weeks, because, no heavy bags and no lecturing from teachers about how bad we are in the specific subject. But, I must admit, this year its so dull. Perhaps because I am dealing with a proper examination, which I really NEED to excel. Getting ALL A1's are crucial since I need scholarship. I really need scholarship. I want to pursue in medicine, I don't want to be an English teacher, like what my dad wants me to be. Not a teacher dad, sorry!

Teacher's day which will be celebrated on the 29th make me more confusing, and started to blast. Its hard being in the high committee members of the prefects. This is due to the hard things that I need to do which I want to do, but basically just didn't have much time to do them. Like planning for any shows for teacher's day. I am not a type of person whom would be able to plan for some shows. I am not BETTY!!! Vanessa on the other hand kept pushing me to do a fashion show. Its okay if she could help with that, but she just good at talking and not at doing things. Sorry if you read this.

Again my head is full of problems regarding friends. I am loosing some of them every single day. I hate this. I want to be surrounded with people, I need friends. But, its too sad when they are only friends when we are in our laughters days. In my sorrows, who would ever want to be my friends. Chiam one day asked me if I would ever be mad if she wants to change her partner in badminton. And, I said no. Well, its the answer that will solve everything. If you don't want to play with me fine! I just hope you will find someone else better. T_T

Ah, and again its no use blogging, it is just a way of expressing my thoughts, my sorrows, my good news, my advice to the people out there, who never really exist in my life. Now, it feels a lot better. At least for this time of being. And I am glad I have Naqib. Thanks for being such a good buddy and tutor. Well, goodnight. Need to prepare for exam again...emmm

GIGIT JARI!!-It's Mid year

Ala...baru mid-year, dah takut ke???

YEAH i'M AFRAID i am!!!!

hOLLY COW, it's tomorrow, and wish me good luck,
it's damn scary...first thing tomorrow morning is Physic Paper 2
sitting for 2 hours and 30 mins..can u bare it?

and then bio paper 1....Huaaaaaaaaa!!~ Regretting for wasting time in front if this computer...

Help each other for SPM

To all my SPM-ers friends who are struggling burning the midnight oil and succumb to rackoon eyes, here is a website which will help u gain notes on science subjects. Check out the cool card notes on physics. Ideal for form 4 too. Credit to Sarah for this.

Kat sini kalau nak notes

currently, oozing and mowing to get every facts inside the head.
hope my neuron cells do not experience haemolysis.