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Assalamualaikum. Writing all the way from Belgaum, Karnataka, India. Missing Malaysia so much. But everything is just perfectly fine here. India makes people not just live, but SURVIVE. :)

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Saturday, 3 July 2010

Making them a TABOO

"Mirror mirror on the wall....who's the fattest girl of them all?" I asked my mirror the magical mirror of Disney.

"I must say your highness, YOU are the fattest of them all!" It answered.                           
I cried for days knowing I am the fattest of them all. It hurts you know, to be odd, adding to the fact to be fat. You would not be looking nice in any clothes with flab tummy. Perut berlapis is a nightmare! Seriously, I have to make some things a taboo. Jom berpantang! >.<


Potatoes

One of my favorite for all time. Name any food with potatoes stuffed with it, I can eat them like a king. Mak Long used to make this good-fatty appetizer of chopped steamed potatoes, with egg and mayonnaise, and it was so delicious. Note that this is so fatty and appetizing, till you wanna more. Other potatoes-based food are like french fries, sambal goreng kentang, hmmm...potato pie...argh! I have to stop taking excess potatoes.. 

yummyyyy dipped with mayo!     


Cakes and confectionery

I don't actually eat cakes but I must say I am a big lover of cakes. Especially those with cheese in it, namely cheese cakes...Plus, croissant, breads, doughnuts, tarts, muffins....name them...I can eat them in loads non stop. These need to be taboos...too. 

cheesycake....I love you, now I need to hate you!!

Eat doughnuts like everyday, and having FABULOUS curveS as this woman does, would be a dream come true. NO?     

Carbohydrates....

People said to be thin, stop eating rice. How come? I am an Asian, I need rice. It's a staple food anyway. But seriously, if that what it takes, then yes NO RICE.....>.<

fried rice.....bye3


Other junk food

Others would probably be canned drinks, drinks in carton, biscuits, chocolate bars, potato chips, banana chips....fish chips...soda beverages.....bye2 heaven of food...

Cadbury:(  

beverage fountain...


I really have to make them my taboos for next upcoming days....I need to slim down.....since I am not looking any good since I entered college, I look bad...and fat...hate it....I can't fit into my jeans like I used to...sigh***





What about her? A new schedule?

Nothing interesting occurred for the passed 1 week of life at UiTM. It was rather a plentiful of works that have been given to us kids, on assignments, lab reports, tutorials and etc. These are not becoming a burden, since I know I can do them well enough, IF AND ONLY IF, time is sufficient, and co-operation is up to a boost. 

BIOLOGY

I find Biology lecture was pretty boring these days. Maybe because I am learning things that I already learned or maybe because I just couldn't get the lecturer's body language. Just looking at the slides which I think aren't that USEFUL since most of the pictures or notes can be found inside the Campbell Book, making me feel dizzy and sleepy all the way. Biology lecture, is just a time where students need to sit down and listen to talks and stops there. Nothing much. I also doubt about the way the lecturers taught the course. Sometimes the answers to her questions aren't that scientific enough. 

P/S: In Presco, Biology was rather fun, 50% enjoyable than the one I am having right now. This is because, there were debates on certain topics discussed among the students and lecturer. Those scenes really widen up my view on Biology and making things rejoicing. But here, lecturer talks and we just look on the screen...it's damn boring.

CHEMISTRY

I prefer chemistry in UiTM more rather in the place I used to study. Even though Pn Rozana was a bit of person who talk-by herself, but I think she's better off teaching the subject. We went into great detailed until I find myself dipped into chemistry now. She made the calculation part easier, and she is a good lecturer who we can easily and kindly asked for help, if we don't understand certain topics on that subject. She might look snobbish from the outside, but she is actually very friendly to the students. Thumbs up!!

P/S: Back in college, Miss Kho was rather in her Skyline-speed when it comes to teaching, and expecting us the slow-mo to get into her tracks just like that, without bothering to slow down. That's why I was lost in chemistry during the old days in the college. 


PHYSICS

Conducted by Prof Ahmad, a very relaxing old man, with a songkok on his head, just to symbolized that he has the knowledge of both High Level Physics as well as good Islamic views. He is funny from the start, but like Biology, everything in his slides are of exact copy of the book by Giancoli. Just that, with some showings on the questions part that differ these two subject literally. In his lecture, students would probably found themselves awake and alive although I know Physics might be fearsome for SOME, including me to be frank. But, he did said, when you are doubting on a particular subject related to Physics, just FORGET ABOUT IT! Besides that, I think he's the best physics MASTER I ever had since I started involving in it when I was 16. Oh...not to mention, he is also the one who said that coupling is not a bad thing to do. It is what normal people do. Hahaha. *Don't get me wrong, what I meant was coupling in the Islamic way-nikah*

P/S: In previous experiences, I find Physics very hard. Now, I am in love with it. In Presco, Physics was my very first class. On that moment, I was dumbfounded because, the lecturer taught so fast, and I couldn't get any of the showings he taught us in front. I miss Miss DALILAH who was my 3rd physics lecture in Presco. She's cute, and comfortable, feeling like a very good big sister teaching the fearsome subject. She's in Penang now...and I hope she's doing great. -I also wondering what Mr Matt would be doing by now...ahaks...he was the 2nd Physics Master I found to be great.

Mathematics

First, it was taught by Puan Khadija, a sempoi-old woman with a long veil. She was funny...I guess, although I couldn't really get some of her jokes...maybe because I was damn too sleepy. My math lecturers mostly starts, after zuhur, which make me feel slightly bloated and of course tiring, and sleepy. Why? Because after lunch, the stomach will be bloated, and the eyes would be sleepy and tired. Now, a new lecturer, Pn Hafizah, who is still fresh. She shivers every time she starts talking or writing things down on the white board. I pity her for not being able to handle 200 students at once in the hall. Overall, however, she's nice, and more straight-to the point. But I wish she could have write bigger on the board, coz I hardly see anything from the back!!

P/S: I heard that Mr Alvin at Presco shifted to somewhere else. Poor my peers in Presco, for loosing such a handsome-cute-fast-funny math lecturer like him. I miss him although he hardly recognized me and distinguished me from Aida. *math was 100% times easier back then in college*


NEW SCHEDULE

The new schedule will be used starting by Monday. I hate the new one since there's Physics lecture after lunch. It's more packed, and hectic. No more guling-guling atas katil after this.... The new schedule is made because the degree and diploma students are now progressing in the campus, meaning, it would be crowded starting Monday...which is a good thing where I can forget about lunch...

ABOUT HER?

A friend of mine, suddenly 'vanished' and turned into her silent-mode. I haven't received any text from her this 1 week of life at the campus. Last was on Monday when she canceled the plan to meet another guy friend who was leaving for JPA. Optimistic side-Probably she's busy. Pessimistic side -Probably I don't suit her and vice versa. *Sigh*

ABOUT COUSIN

How great to know, I have a cousin here in Puncak Alam. But, why didn't I feel a slight feeling of relief or surprise? Maybe because I am having a very bad mood since the beginning adding to the fact that that cousin and I aren't that close to mingle with, so evolving the sense of not-to-care if or not she is around. I prefer living alone. *Boo me!*



 









Tuesday, 29 June 2010

Forget the past, Live for the future

I am typing this as fast as I could, because my roommate will surely return and wanting to use her desk. I need a broadband seriously!

Why did I ever concern about updating? Not like I have those followers who will keep track on me, like Hanis Zalikha, nor Zack Zuhairi. Right? Plus, it is still not comfy to type down, something using this lappy. I haven't got the power to type it fast yet. Probably later.

It was a very overwhelming day, and it ended with Physics lecture by Prof Ahmad. I like Prof Ahmad, merely because his incredibly amazing sense of humor. I find him funny thus making I love Physics to the extend. ^_^

Prof Ahmad is a person who can sometimes gives good advice. "Forget the past! Go running to the future!" What have happened have been destined, take responsibility for every actions that you make. However, the future can still change, change accordingly, according to the efforts made. Once you said, you will fail, meaning you are the one who is at lost. Never give up.

He is true in 360 degree turnabout. Everything counts on our effort. He also mentioned that don't regret for what happened in the past, for example I always regret for having a BLOODY B for my biology paper in SPM, which in turn failing me to get any scholarships to study abroad in Medicine. Maybe this is good for me, only HE knows best. I almost cry, reminiscing how awfull I have reacted in the past, blaming the destiny that I have been given, and blaming myself for being weak. Perhaps because I was (still am) envying those friends who are just steps further from going somewhere better to learn what they wanna learn. Their destiny, their lucks. Just make things that way.

> ITS A BLOODY B FOR THE SUBJECT I LOVE THE MOST<




When my peers here took our pictures, they ask, why am I looking sad? Do they have to ask, seriously? And, maybe that will just be temporary. Hope I will find "light" here. That's all.

quizzes and tests

Mood: Nerd and Boring are ON.

Time to get in love with books.

It's time to get into discussions, even though I hate discussion.

and...It's time to really be "someone" instead of being a "nobody"

I wanna be an all-rounder. 

Saturday, 26 June 2010

Miscellaneous

Hoorah, I am in school again :| Which is somehow legends do return :|

But how come? By having troops who I can't or somehow have bad time to count on. 

Maybe that's why I choose to spend my weekends at home rather than staying at hostel because, I need some time to be alone. To be sniffing at my previous actions, and thinking of ways to stay optimistic about what have happened and will happen to me. I must grow, and mature.

Foundation studies, include too many works which I can't complain, since it is a pre-degree program, it supposed to train us how to deal with workloads in our degree during the next years to come. But, the most despicable of all, it of course, lab reports >.< especially physics and chemistry!

Physics like everyone knows, it's like the most toughest subject around. I can't mix with it very well, maybe because I lack of the sprint in thinking, and using the IQ power up to the maximum level to apply the knowledge to answer the questions and etc. We did an experiment on Newton's Second Law last Thursday, and I can't even interpret the whole experiment into the discussion part that needed to be done. Sigh!

Adding up with chemistry, not a very tough experiment, but when it comes to discussion the brain stops. References are needed regarding titration, and etc. The calculation part is easy but when it came to teamwork it became totally a chaos, since too many broth spoiled the soup!!

Ah. This is life I suppose to endure for another 8 months. Next week will be fully occupied with the nerd mood, since quizzes are on and so do the monthly tests before the mid-sem break. So, I better just have my body and soul stay cool and optimistic, by being there, and let the days passed. Right? Right....>.<

P/S: Seriously I missed the day when we laughed and study together, at college! Sadly, it is now a history

Monday, 21 June 2010

What does it feel to be a DAD?

Assalamualaikum peeps...

Again this monday, is somehow relaxing, I am done with today's physics and chemistry. Nothing funny nor intriguing happened, just the same-usual Mondays, the day where all the boys here looked smashing in their tucked in shirts with a tie, and black-shiny bally shoes. Hahaha:) My friends and I played 'flirt' in lecture hall, peeping which and who is the most handsome, and cute among them all. xD *gatal naaa* (Whatever:))

For the past weekends, it was Father's Day. A day barely called it, to celebrate a man called father, or dad. But for me it's for my beloved PAPA. Well, maybe it sounded childish to call my father papa, at this age, but to call him PAPA, reminding me of becoming his first baby girl again whom used to be in his cuddles, who used to play soccer with him, before my brother was born and who used to be his sweetheart. Haha.

I do not know exactly how does it feel to be a father. How does it feel hold the responsibility of taking good care of the kids, handling and knowing their essentials, work hard to pay for everything and so many other responsibility on his shoulder. A dad therefore must be the forth or fifth person, to be loved after mom. FIRST until THIRD, MOM is the one who needs the most attention, then it came to DAD. 


I remembered the day when I cried meticulously thinking of the fact that I will not be going to Russia to pursue medicine, since I got an offer from UiTM. Dad was the one who told me with his softest tone,

"Sorry darling, that I can't granted your wish. Maybe you want to be like me, studying abroad, but trust me, locally is much more better"


I admit I hurt my father a lot these days by muttering these and that, couldn't let go of my safe zone, taking him for granted, treating him bad, by raising my voice, sulk and so many things which obviously showed my weakness. I also being too demanding by asking these and that showing my disrespectful whatsoever. To cut it short, DAD! I've sinned! Maybe my dad and I do have some arguments since we do not share the same opinions and etc, but I believed, the difference between him and I is the factor which makes our relationship as father and daughter strengthen. Thanks daddy or papa for everything you've done for me! 

Sunday, 20 June 2010

Never been so amuse:)

For the past a week, I've found this so amusing video in Youtube, specially made by a troop of asian gang, called nigahiga. TEHEE

Movies in Minute..TITANIC, think you have watch the titanic, watch it again :)