Today, I felt like I am useless, nothing, I am a zero. I was absolutely wrong when I thought that I am the best kid at school. And why did I said this? This is because, mainly because I didnt get to go to MRSM.
Why? Where did I got wrong? I suffered too much last year, struggling in both academics and co-curricular activities, but where is the result? Nothing, I am ashamed of myself. I am not anyone. I give up.
My mom said theres hikmah behind all these. But, ah, I cant live anymore, the reason why I want to excahnge school is coz, I need a better future, I wanna feel a new environment, I wanna be independent, eventhough its not fun to stay far away from home. Now, I am waiting for the 2nd intake, but it will be so long, I dont know when. Its sucks now. very sucks, hate everything, hate myself, hate fate, hate everything.
This is humiliating.......T.T