Breathing

Yes, I am back. But for temporary mean. I am still in the examination swing. Still on, and I got 2 more papers to deal with. It has been a tiring journey. And the bad news is that, I did pretty bad in the papers which I usually did well.

Now, what's left is the blessing from Allah ALMIGHTY. I am really hoping for his blessing for my efforts. You see, I did realized I didn't put as much effort to sustain what I had and this is might be the repercussion that I have to bear.

Mom and dad are away far away in Mekah performing their compulsory Hajj. I know they're praying for me there, and I really hope I get the blessing from them as well.

I had my Physics paper just now at school. Paper 3, the practical was awesomely easy, I guarantee there will be thousands who will get A++ this time, and so, the competition for the scholarship therefore tighten. What a luck ...

I had discussed on the Question about designing a thermos flask with my dear friend in Penang. Badly, I think he won, and I am lost. How can he be so ingenious. Well, it is his luck....I will lost my ten marks in that, I supposed.

For account, I must say that I passed. It was the most horrible event I attended so far in the dearly hall of SMK Kajang Utama. All in all, I despise accounting....as much as I used to love it. LCCI CERTIFICATE is now a dream untrue. Poor me...and serve me right for being arrogant too.

Bon Voyage for now..and then

Leaving the thing I am passionate for, so that I can concentrate fully on the first thing I need to do:)

Until we see again....if not, grab this flying kisses ( :*) from me...

How I can't let go of the TV

I have no idea on how to achieve my 2009's resolution which I made earlier this year. My resolution is to concentrating fully on the first thing I have to complete in doing, which of course like you know, the SPM.

It's a big examination that somehow, would either put me good in the future, or would rather deter my plans. I have this big ambition to be a doctor, yeah, which I notice it is a lame ambition. It's a traditional ambition. But, hey, medicine field is somehow a very stable aspect since we see a lot of people getting sick everyday right? Sadly, I do know and already learnt how miserable life could be if I still on the path to be A MEDIC student. How would I thrive with the facts, anatomy of humans, and etc, never end list of things that many young people won't bare to pursue.

My cousin told me that it's better for me to pursue a career in ENGLISH language. I might be the STAR-editor one day...hehehe...(berangan sikit). My dad told the same thing to me. He had this bad imagination, where he thought I couldn't survive in that world of study galore of Biology. God HELP me find he right path. All I could do is pray.

Ah yeah, I am now addicted to Girly Night Tuesday and Thursday on 8TV. And how am I gonna do my final revision for these 50 last days if I go on staying lazy??? Of course, even if I asked a mental retarded person on the street, the person would definitely go, "U RE CRAZY". Haih, for this reason I think I won't do good in the exam. Crap...I just need strength, I was very strong last year.

Plus, with the no ended sleepiness I could not stay awake just for a three hour revision time. I would ended up drooling of sleepiness, and sway in my dreams which when I woke up, I kindly forget everything about it. How AM I going to stay awake just for a complete 18 hours a day??
And, how am I gonna make my mind and B-brain to stay active? I failed even though I take up caffeine for three times a day. SO how??? Do I have to take PIL KUDA?

Suppose to laugh at it

Ok, finally I got an F for my account principle paper. Why GOD? Why did I make up my mind to sit for it at the first place?? Now, laugh at me people, I failed for that paper. =.=

I myself, well to be truthful, I really don't know why I took the paper. Maybe because I want to break the school record for being one of the students whom sit for 12 papers. People have been asking me about the decision I made because principles of accounting is not something that everyone could opt for. It is a professional paper, and yet I failed the trial exam because of it...laugh out loud at me...

Yeah, I know that I've been a jerk these while. My friend, Farhana once asked me whether I want to follow her for a tutor in that subject, but I didn't take it seriously, as I thought I could manage to study on my own. But now, the curtain had opened and revealed my true self...I am just average.

So, right now I am still in dilemma, I can't opt to drop the subject, because it had been finalized. I just think I shouldn't appear on the big day of the real SPM for that paper, if I really couldn't manage to do it good.

Haih....I am bad in decision-making...I am hopeless and useless after all..

Just so near

haha.

Now the school break that I am breathing for, finally arrived. Thanks God, for waking me up again this morning and let me see your the wonders you have been given to me for the past 17 years.

Its the 29th ramadan (*betul ke ni?*) and, Ramadan is just as simple as every year, but it is the most Holy month in the Islamic calendar, so smile people, its the month when Allah blesses us with all his Gifts.

Yesterday, I had Biology paper 3, a test that needs us to deal with Biology's experiment. I don't know whether it was easy or hard, but I just prayed that every single answers I wrote in the blank spot worth a try. Setelah berusaha, Tawakkal yang penting:)

Must I blab that this year, it has been a bit gloomy. None of my real friends really wish me Hari Raya, but I am happy when Christina wished me that after all the fights and also the wishes from the other girlfriends. Hari Raya meant to be the happiest day for all muslims, and the wishes just bloomerised the happiness lies within it.

All in all, happy aildilfitri to all.

It was "not intentionally"

I wonder why many women these days, like to wear short skirts. Well, for those non-Muslims, I won't be condemning them about wearing those "eye-bulging" clothes, since they have no faith in the concept of "sealing the Aurat", but still I am wondering, why the Muslim ladies tend to act like they never have faith, or never understand what the concept is all about? Mind if I ask you to rethink?

This issue came out of the blue moon, while I was having my 'delightful' evening leisure watching stupid Malay drama, since that's the only program available on TV. In that drama, a young woman, wearing extremely short denim skirts and a baby top was pissed off, when a mechanic tried to reminding her of the concept of 'sealing the aurat' by using the reverse psychological method. He said:

"It is so bizarre. You can see a lot of women these days showing off their thighs and 'stuff''. Are they making some free shows for the public? Oh GOD! They are damn 'generous' aren't they?"

Upon hearing that 'advice' from that kind-hearted mechanic, she went a blast, really mad, and became totally freaking out. She left by saying:

"It's my right to wear what I like. None of your business, you moron!!!"

Fine, looks like the woman was just wearing as what she decided to wear. That doesn't bring any harm to anyone nor bringing harm to the environment. But, does she know, that revealing certain parts of the body is A sin to do?? No?? Then, its a shame.

As for myself, I am not trying to act pious, or trying to say that I am an angel, but as Muslim women, what we can do is to try understanding the concept of our faith; Islam. No way saying that we are ISLAM but we ourselves never stand up to follow the faith itself. Rethink girls. Rethink.

Plastered Mouth

I was like having a plastered mouth. I couldn't speak nor can I smile. That were the 2 things recently happened to me, for this week, hopefully just this week. My lips started to dry, using lips balm was totally useless, it makes the lips worsen. So, friends, (if I do have one), when you noticed me of being silent or arrogant, please don't jump to the conclusion that I was being ignorant. It was because I was not in a good health. Hope you people understand.

I have no fun for the past weeks I breathed. The last fun was yesterday during breaking the fast with the family and then, I devoted my whole soul to finish reading and MEMORIZING the History facts. I started revising from 7:30 pm until late 1.00 am and I was doing a good job for making my eyes looking terribly horrible, I almost look like a Koala, but the difference, the Koala is cuter than I.

Yes people, it's no use making last minute preparation. So, for those who will be sitting for any examinations, please do not make it a habit. All these whiles, I admit that I was not that concern about History and that's what happen when I suddenly had to rush to get all the facts into the head. My God, I was "bloated", my head my brain was bloated. And, that was excluded with Agama Islam. First time in life, I felt like I did badly in Agama. Sorry Ustazah dear.

Let me tell you something readers, I do not like examination's hall that much. Why? Well the first and up most reason is because all the form five students, who I must say, some of them have those satanic-notty attitude and behaviors are together in the hall, sitting like they really concern about the exam. Duh...what a luck sitting with them all. I hope this will be the last time I be at the hall. I have had enough of this! Secondly, is because, it's hot. Well, I must sounded a bit "baby-ish", but I really hated it when we have to struggle with the papers in a wet, soaking condition especially during additional math test. Lastly, is because the internal pressure. Pressure to succeed, pressure to do good, pressure that I didn't answer them right, pressure that maybe the marks won't reach the targeted score. SO MUCH pressure!!!~

People have been mentioning how relax can I be after the SPM hits its hay. But, I still think they were doing their lightest job in giving me some power to move on. It's easier to open the mouth and talk rather that go! action!. And, after SPM, should I just stay back and having heavenly pleasure spending hours at home, or should I do something that contribute something good to my life. For example, a small job, a time at the gymnasium, or maybe finding a partner. Ok, that's maybe too much. But I strongly believe there won't be that much fun that many people expected a SPM leaver will have. up! up! AND away! It's time to grow up. And I don't want to....