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Friday, 25 January 2008

HOPING is just sucks....

Before I sit for my PMR examination, I was HOPING so much, for the boarding school, so as a determination, I dug for POINTS, points in Cocurricular activities, and also points in academics. People was HOping for me to get an offer, but WHAT HAPPENED now is really miserable. I didn't get any. =.=
Only two persons who got SBP, they are Marwan, he got Sekolah Sains Sultan Alam SHah and Husnina, who got Sekolah sains In Muar. I was absolutely-spellblinded and frustrated. I felt like giving up. These two persons, are now known as the best PMR candidates for 2008, and I, dont mention, I am not...
The worst news is now, Nina is leaving the KU school (my current school), and also my BEST FRIEND, Maryam. She is leaving for sekolah teknik somewhere in cheras. I cried terribly because of her last night. I looked dumb. Besides, today, after school, I kept silent, an rushing to my room, just to let my tears came out from myself. The tears are probably, because she is leaving, MY BEST BUDDY. This means I will be a lone-ranger, in the prefects' club. How "great"?
Teachers were asking about the SBP offers. They were in shock when I announced that I failed to get a place. What can i do? Its the kemeterian fault and of course my fault too, of not scoring excellent grades in PMR. Now, people will surely talk behind my back, and said I am suck. I feel like not going to school no more. I feel empty although I still have some friends here. My gang is decreases. Huda also said that she wants to go to teknik, where yes, she got shah alam school, and if she goes, she will be leaving on MONDAY, and then, I'll be so lonely, without anyone here.
I have lost supporters, companions and also friends. They are now going forever, leaving me alone in solitary, yeah, I was supposed to accept this fact, that we will surely leave our friends, and get new ones, but I just cant help myself, from feeling this awful thing inside me. No matter how hard I cry, they will still go, I cant stop them. This is sucks, and HOPING sucks too. I will not try to hope in the future. Just that....
Life supposed to be fun, but it turns to be miserable and sad. I was supposed to leave them first, but yet, they leave me in the 1st place. There's no one I can rely on now, there's no one to laugh with. I am now, LONELY......

2 comments:

- solitary gurl - said...

stop saying that..it shows that u x bersyukur..u got 8A's maa..here, i promised, as long as i still alive, i'll be ur companion no matter what..also, i'll help u to get the 'asrama', even though i know that i'll be all alone if u go to asrama..ur future is bright unlike me..still dull..so, stop saying "Hoping is sucks"..i just hate when u say that..

nadenka ^^ beauclair a.k.a farah said...

Hey gurl...
U are not lonely...
I'm here 4 u if u want 2 talk.. =.*

About the SBP thing..
Well maybe it is very important 4 u...BUT as other people says, "don't judge a book by its cover"

What I mean here is, no matter where u are, who are ur frenz, U CAN STILL SUCCESS if U WANT!!

It is not important--->SBP/ MRSM thing...
Like me.... I used to get an offer to a SBP school but I rejected it...
WHY?
Bcoz I think, if I live with my parents, I will do better in my studies...
I will not get any 'asrama thing' problem and so on which will affect my studies...
I don't care if people called me spoiled brat kid or sometin...I JUST DON'T CARE...

Look all the things that u hv now as THE BEST n maybe one day U will realise that IT IS THE BEST!!
U will be grateful of not getting SBP/ MRSM offer...

Believe it or not..
Haha....
Hopefully, my lil' advice can help u a lil' bit more...
Drop by sometime....
See u there!!!
Mmmuaackzzz!!!!
=.*