Confusion Again

I dwell with so many confusions lately. And I hate all these messes. How I pray I could erase them and let them go away. But I guess, I must keep positive, that all this mishaps would turn out as my useful guide and allow me to grow into a better conflict solver.

Been attached to a blog by Kak Chik a.k.a Ruben, who happened to be one of my future seniors at India. Simply like her blog, even though it is sort of a tedious time trying to read it. Sorry, but I am a bit harsh when it comes to lots of abbreviations and lots of 'on-purpose-misspelling' (ejaan salah yang disengajakan). However, as a total, her blog and bro Aidil Yusof's blogs are terrific and super helpful. I should hand in kudos to Naqib, a best friend, who linked me this blog a couple of months ago. HEHEHE.

So basically, Kak Chik was very helpful as a Q&A ambassador. I asked stupid questions like how long does it take from KL to Bangalore and how long will class runs a day? And things like that. Yesterday, I got confused with SPC (Skim Pelajar Cemerlang)- which I am puzzled how did she managed to get it even though she was from PASUM, since these days I thought SPC was only meant for SPM fresh graduates, like what Nina and Zaki got earlier.

Then, here's the answers, a very long and informative one I supposed, regarding the MARA thingy which I have been trying to copy inside this slow brain.

hi dayana azhar...

erm.. klu sy ckp sy hebat awk percaya x???awk xtawu ke selama nie mara memang akan call orang2 yg perform masa matrix dlu utk fly ke luar negara...

awk tawu ke perjanjian mara tue mcm mana?

awk tawu ke apa spc?

mara punya spc is basically loan.. loan boleh ubah...pinjaman ble ubah...

pada tahun2 sebelum nya... iaitu sebelum tahun nie.. menurut perjanjian spc.. peminjam perlu membayar balik sbyk 1% daripada pinjaman tersebut sekiranya peminjam itu berjaya dengan cemerlang dalam tempoh pengajian tersebut...

kalo dikirakan.. peruntukn bagi seorang pelajar ke india sebanyak rm 500k.. jd 1% daripada 500k.. berapa?? sy tawu awk pandai matematik...

sebab tue laa.. orang akn selalu igt.. bila dapat spc.. dapat scholarship yang 100% xyah bayar...

walaupun mara tue mmg murah hati.. namun... dia perlukan duit jugak utk trus bermurah hati...

tetapi dalam kes awk nie... mara daa revise dia pye polisi... maka pelajar yang mendapat spc harus membayar balik 20% daripada duit pinjaman tue...

kiranya.. apapun awk nak bagitawu sy.... sy nk kasi taw blk sama awk.. mara mmg daa ubah dia punya syarat tue.. thats why korang sumer yg bkl menandatangani perjanjian ngan mara harus membayar blk 20% drp jumlah pinjaman...

klo awk rasa nk keterangan lebih lanjut... awk ble berhubungan ngan pihak mara bahagian hutang piutang tue(lpe ap nama dia yang sebenar)

erm.. biasa laa tue lambat drp mara.. sbb awk bkn nya bdk mara yang under mara pye preparation.. dia kira lg pening.. nati satu hari.. bila awk kne panggil utk btn.. baru awk rasa sume tue jelas... ok... tp sy xsure ada btn tak time2 puasa nie

owh.. lagi satu sy nk ckp.. basically jpa pye scholar pun bkn scholar free.. if u don't want to work with government in years(according to the contract) u need to pay back all amount that government spent to u...

kiranya sumer benda sama saja laa.. xkira awk dpt scholarship drp mana pun badan kat m'sia tue.. cuma ada segelintir jer bg as real pye scholarship.. like genting i think..

awk jgn pikie 20% tue byk.. 20% tue bkn nya interest... tue jumlah awk kne bayar blk.. so still u shud call it as scholar ship!

about the book.. don't judge the book by what u heard.. u have read those books... buku tue nati jadi makanan ruji awk.. bukan sume orang ada buku fav yg sama... u will understand what i said once u experience it.. tempe mean local tempatan=tempe...

recomendation is based on usm text book.. u will get the list in buku fasa satu once u register the course..

hubli is a place.. u will take a plane from bangalore to hubli.. search in google map if u wanna see it.. kiranya it is a transit...

belgaum-bangalore jauh mcm kb-mersing.. as i told u earlier...

July 25, 2011 7:04 PM

So, YES, now I knew a little bit on how this 'loan' works. Now, I have to pray real hard to get it. Handed in all the necessary requirements already - with my father. Just hope they read my essay carefully and understand I need it. Please, Dear Allah The Most Merciful, gives me strength to face this with calm. 

Alhamdulillah

PENANG, 27 Jan – Teaching and learning using real corpses (cadavers) is a key component in the USM International Medical Doctor Programme carried out in collaboration with KLE University in Belgaum, Bangalore, India (USM-KLE).

KLE, otherwise known as Karnataka Lingayat Education (KLE), was basically established to carry out teaching and learning activities in various fields in Karnataka and South Maharashtra, India.

USM-KLE which has five-star learning and accommodation facilities is regarded as the best alternative and significant location for Malaysian students interested in pursuing a medical degree overseas.

The Vice-Chancellor of Universiti Sains Malaysia (USM), Prof. Tan Sri Dato’ Dzulkifli Abdul Razak said that in order to obtain much better and effective learning experiences, students must take full advantage of the fact that cadavers are used in their studies.

He said that so far there are no universities in the world that are prepared to provide cadavers to meet the needs in the teaching and learning process because of the difficulty in obtaining them. It is different in India, where they are donated for learning purposes.

“We have to take this opportunity to get the best education and the time has come to change our perceptions about India because not everything is bad,” he said in a media conference here today.

Copy and pasted from the USM-KLE Introductory Page. Hehehe. Alhamdulillah, I will go for an interview at Kelantan next week, inshaAllah :'). Right now, I am sort of trying to study for the interview. Never in my life I attended one, this would be my first, well if I excluded the job-seeking interviews of course. Serious nervous. 

The good news is I got the call, the bad news is I don't know how to go. Mom is going to Melbourne on the ninth , meanwhile I have an interview at 8.30 am the next day. Therefore, I have to rush helping mom out on packing that night or probably I have to run errand to get a bus to Kelantan. Mom won't be there, so only dad is around. Probably, I would tag my sister along to help me with the girl's thingy.

Hopefully everything would be just fine till the interview ends. I need this. I have been browsing through a couple of blogs owned by the first batch's students at KLE, and the campus is superb. But UiTM is better, and always better :') Plus, in India, I would have the best experience on clinical skills what not it offers adequate cadavers to 'play' with and that's the fun thing about becoming a medical student right? LOL

Till then, pray for me my dear readers. I am not hoping high, but if there's rezeki, I would go. 

Curtains Are Now Down

Remember the moment when Mara sent me a message which congratulated me for being placed at UiTM for Pre-Medicine course ...it was speechless and amazing. I was at the back seat of a van which we rented for a week during a trip to Sabah, a month ago. I was happy and couldn't utter a single word. My friends who were in the trip knew about the news just 2 days after that. I was so scared to tell them, as being overboard could lead to bad luck.

30th June was yesterday. Another history shall I say. History marked the end of my experience attending Pre Medicine here at UiTM Shah Alam (USA) with other 135 students. And yesterday, we had an exposure examination on MCQ True and False questions, whereby it comprised of negative marking scheme. Better leave unanswered said most of our seniors. Dr Rosfaizah, our coordinator said, those questions were lower at standard compared to the real one that inshaAllah we would sit for during the real degree. 

It's scary by the way. Even the lower standard seemed a bit tough. Emm...well tough is not actually the word, but when there are so many topics you learned in a sudden after a brain hiatus for 2 weeks, you'll feel the culture shock. Seriously a bit depressing since answers were quite confusing. Added to the dismay, only an hour was given. T.T

After MCQ, it was time for SAQ (Short Answered Questions). There were 3 questions, and compulsory to answer all of them. The questions were okay to our level but I was numb after seeing the first one, asking to describe extrahepatic biliary tract? What the toot? Haih....I just wrote down what I think was relevant enough. Hopefully, it doesn't back fire T.T

At 11 AM, everything came to a complete full stop. People were happy and relieved to have completed the course. The coordinators kept repeating that hopefully they will see us again in September, and yeah, inshaAllah we will if there's nothing in between. 

And yesterday, to celebrate the end of intense pressure, my roommates and I went to the bookfair at the SACC Mall, had McD for lunch and spent money like they are dried leaves. By the time I reached the hostel back, I was moneyless. I haven't even paid for the dinner yesterday...dah pokai T.T

the hospital sungai buloh's counter

the small park/garden in the middle of the hospital

my sweetest roommates, najwa and nadhirah

2 days before exam, ronda2 kampus :p

the corridor towards the lecture halls :'(

after the exam ended, with sharifah hamizah who would leave for USM this september :'(

my desk's number 93....Fakulti Perubatan USA tuuuu:p

visiting the sports center...dekat je rupanya :P

and sooo the NOOB-est nerdy played....without shoes on. But It was fun!

>>>p/s: I wonder why it's so hard to meet someone I always wanna meet, always wanna chat with and always wanna know. Everytime we planned something, there's other things came in between. SIGH. With this, I end my post regarding Pre Med. Only God knows best where would I head to after this. And of course, I will miss those who are going to USM...SAYONARA :')<<<

Wordless Wednesday

WHAT DO YOU EXPECT?

Two More Months

Home is always a paradise, even though it's not a mansion and surrounded by beaches or flower garden. Trying to stay put on revising is somehow hard. Many to be remembered and to understand but too many distractions, including our parents.

Exam is looming in a couple of days. Frankly speaking, preparation is at par. Not smooth and I don't really know how I am gonna perform. It's a new method of examination when it comes to OSPE. But the great thing about this is the experience and the exposure as a prospective student. 

To stay alone in my hostel at Mawar for revision while my roommates are at their respective home is not a good idea too, even though Internet access is somewhat better compared to home's. Mawar's hostel is just too dim and of poor ventilation, plus it has already been noted as Ladang Ternakan Nyamuk-Mosquitoes Breeding Farm. There had been a couple of sleepless nights and the whole room smelled funny due to minyak serai or Tiger Balm. In a nutshell, I must return home at last.

the exam schedule :S

Examination's schedule already been posted and everyone probably has been noted or informed. It's scary because on 5 weeks of intense course we studied a lot and therefore lot to be comprehended. Just wish I was KYLE XY or JESSEY XX who could just have some glances through the pages of thick books and answer everything correctly but I am not allowed to dream. Human remained human and must committed to his or her own abilities. 

Plus, after Premed ends, I have this wild idea to look for a job. Again, been rejected by mom and dad. So I would just enjoy the 2 more months break before heading for degree. I am scared and nervous, who wouldn't. And just now seeing how Shasha, a childhood friend, already on the pelamin, somehow made me wanna burst into tears. We were small girls and now look at her, perhaps by the time I am finishing this post - she's already someone's wife. A great responsibility and she's just 20. I am amazed:)

While mom and dad already planning on my 'future' wedding, I on the other hand, would just wait for the right time to come. It's hard to be 'away' from being someone's daughter to someone's wife. And what more, I still have to complete another phase of life: Degree. Then, Master, then PHD ...then .......let's see. InshaAllah.

>>>p/s: just hope tonight there's no distractions. just hope that tonight I can at least finish two chapters T.T. just hope that my future husband is the ONE I have been praying for. InshAALLAH.<<<

Exam which feels like a phantom

3rd week now and it feels 'okay' a bit compared to the previous weeks. Why eh? Mostly because I read several motivational comments on the blog, and maybe because I finally could adapt to the UiTM Shah Alam campus. I now know where the museum located, where the laboratory located, the computer lab and the lecture hall of course and find good place to eat around Cendekia. Except for one thing, I COULDN'T TOLERATE: THE SMELLY Shiteous TOILETS!

We bumiputeras are well pampered including us who are undertaking the pre-medicine course. Why must I say that? Well, first is because we joined this thing at the first place WITHOUT the need to pay for anything, just using our money to support on our food and stuff we wanna buy. Can you imagine, how lucky we are, seeing those lecturers cum doctors who are also specialists - and they are superbly nice to us - they gave us lecturers without us paying them any tuition fees? And it's so lucky to be having Dr Hisham, an Iraqi as my Physiology lecturer cum doctor in charge during Small Group Session (SGS). Plus, we are staying at 'moderately' furnished hostels with no fees whatsoever- even though has to bear the gross of the toilets and the smells from them that arouse especially at night.

Then before I go further down to the 'mumbling'- I must say now is a hazard zone. Zone to get all the facts and all the mechanisms inside the brain-those we already discussed of course. Because exam is looming. And it's frightening me off like crazy to think of OSPE -Objective Structural Practical Examination -whereby there're 10 stations to deal with- and we have to answer several practical and structural questions-either on anatomy or on laboratories work like measuring blood pressure or lungs volume and capacity. And this is all maybe- plus, tonnes to be read and not just read but to memorize! Then, also we are required to undergo 150 MCQ's together with 3 Short Answer Questions, which are compulsory to be answered. 

Asked one doctor named Dr Syed in the Anatomy Lab just now- regarding the examination. Should we the premed students just depends on the lecture notes or on the books? He said, PRIOR THE BOOKS. The lecture notes are like extra-simplest key points. After listening to the advice, I tried pushing myself to look for more diligence to open up those books and get some points from them. Scary.

But, Premed is also fun. When we got super roommates who heal and washed away all the crazy uneasy feelings on insecurities, when we are able to sit together during dining either it be lunches or dinners, when we are able to advice each other and etc. It's amazing to hear experiences from doctors cum lecturers here- how their life were during the housemanship, during the college years- all in all, they somehow gave inspiration to me- to note that No One Says Life is Easy. What makes it easy, is perseverance and lot of prayers and blessing from Allah and dear Parents.

Thanks for all the comments I received. And, I already been lectured by Mom last week, whereby she told me to rethink if I am really determined to be in this field of madness. Kalau premed pun tak tahan, apatah lagi real med school and real life as a doctor kan? For this 3rd week, I have somehow put in mind that to be rich, this is certainly not the route, but if there's more patience and hardworking together with perseverance and CONFIDENCE we can be specialists- and when we are already one of them- we could gain not just respect but TRUST. The eternal trusts from our patients and the community. Sprinkled too with LEISURE, whereby we can almost do whatever we want without having the need to be boss around. 

-fun going to Hospital Sungai Buloh-the place was a majestic, and a beauty of course. Imagine, how we can go doing roundings at the place, so conducive and comfy. And not as busy as those hospitals like HTAR or HKL. 

-met a neurologist-who is also very sarcastic and funny simultaneously-Dr Andrean Husin who happened to be our coordinator; Dr Rosfaizah's husband-who told me mostly doctors deal with satans compared to dealing with God. 0.0

-met Dr Faisal, a paeditrician- a good doctor who explains very well.

-met Dr Onkara, an opthalmologist (kutt, dah lupe, tehee:D)  ....who happened to be a bit strict, whereby she advised a group mate to do something with his wavy hair as she told us doctors should look boring not interesting. 

>>>p/s: gives strength to your servant dear Allah. To pass all these and be happy. And to Aini Najwa, hope your choice to reject USM is the best for you, Amin<<<

Bersyukurla

Just finished reading Ariffshah's post regarding an ungrateful parent, whom his kid, was sent to Moscow to pursue medicine. You can read it on your own here. And, please read it very carefully.

This pak cik, wrote a letter concerning that Russia is a mundur country and lacking the expertise to produce First Class doctors. I heard the same thing since early last year, and well, couldn't be surprised. This old guy, wrote how his kid in Russia, feeling miserable and lost the spirit to study, because of the negative publicities arousing over their studies over there. 

He also posted that, there's a hidden agenda behind the reason why Malaysia, especially MARA to send good students to pursue medicine at Russia. And, he was really worried regarding this matter, since he had signed up a RM 600 K contract with Mara to send his kid there. He doesn't want his kid to graduate as 2nd class doctors.

Then came, a reply from an anynomous called Pelajar Marah from Moscow too. The person replied, with an angry tone, that, the pak cik and his kid, should be grateful under any circumstances since they can be considered lucky enough to have been given the chance to do undergraduate studies overseas. Russia on the other hand, is not mundur at all! Well, Pelajar Marah replied by saying, how can Russia be considered as Mundur when it has the fastest Internet Connection in the world!? Even our beloved country which we often said as MAJU, always have problems regarding secure-smooth Internet line. Hahhaa. Think Twice. And the system of education at Russia is different, even for clinical training for the medical students are conducted differently compared to locally. And, even if the kid can write and speak a little in Russia, well, fret yes, that the knowledge is still below an edge over many different dialects of the language itself, and therefore do not be surprise if one has trouble to understand the courses taught. 

This is probably the tenth time did I hear bad things about studying medicine in Russia. But, why in fright? Don't you see that, once you are there, and got the chance to study, using the MARA MONEY, you should then be grateful enough? The post by the pak cik seriously giving me a sense of hatred towards some typical malaysian mindset over smallest matters. Every country you go, there's a different way of studying things and applying things, so why so worried? Many fresh doctors from Russia, couldn't perform well? Then they should have learn from those who are better once they are here. Everything needs to be learn. AND being a medical doctor, is one of the many careers that implies LIFELONG LEARNING. 

You see, for those who got the chance to study overseas, STOP MUTTERING. Some of us, in the country who mainly didn't get the chance to get the same opportunity, have to struggle real hard to get to medical schools. Everything needs to be learn, even though not everything we learn will be applied later in the undergraduate program. Places locally are limited, and there are so many competitors here and there to get the same thing, while those who are already some steps away from being a doctor, like those in Russia and overseas, should be thankful, and just think for a sec, what if you guys are in our shoes! 

I am tired listening to whining and muttering, and ungratefulness of the many luckier persons who thought they aren't lucky enough! Stop blaming the country for sending you guys to where you guys hate. Accept the fact and just adapt to it. Life need to be endured strongly and not pathetically blaming things around.

Making Money

To be a student is a hard work. Thinking how fast time flew, and how abruptly you have used all the allowances is a nightmare. Good students are given scholarships, some take that as a responsibility and some just plainly don't because, perhaps, they come from a well-being family. But, still some just plainly act low profile, use the money only on something important and save the rest. Maybe money doesn't mean anything to them.

A month plus plus of holidays finally laid down it's curtain. It was boring to know that holidays were spent with nothing but excessive sleeping and blogging and chatting nonsense via skype. But knowing how those days where you don't have to worry about what will happen the next day is heaven! I will only have them back when semester II ends, on the late of March 2011.

Having a degree on medicine is something I really wish would come true. No hard work, no pray, no perseverance, and no entry given would make it just plainly a dream. I still on my wits end thinking on other options. Sorry to note that I have none. Saying you want to be something and had that something for your career just because you have dream for it the whole life, is pathetic. And pathetically, it happens to me. To be rich by being a doctor, is a certain not. But, why when people ask what I wanna do with life, the answers would give rise to those that need money to be settled down? 

Three friends so far have invited me to join a business venture. I can say that it's not a bizarre thing. They came online nicely and sent messages nicely, to ask me to join them in the Score A business, which as for me, thought of it more likely as Marketing Level thingy, which, frankly speaking, kinda hard to be trusted. Thanks Hanif, Fidrie and Azeryl for that many many explanations on the program. Really appreciate them. But to start ahead, joining them is not easy. It needs money still! Where am I gonna find that so much money?   God knows. 

Listing 20 names that I know best, who can really help lend me RM 50 per person is a tough thing to do. I never really had ask people for funds. Even for a RM 10, it feels awkward. But, if they are willing to help lending me some money, it is for the business sake. And, I PROMISE to pay it back in a month. Well, that's what Hanif told me. How far is it to be true, only God Knows. 

However, after looking at the three categories of people in this world, which 

1. 1. see the chances, but think that he has so much time, so why now? 
2. 
   
3. 2. grab the opportunity fast, for it won't come in twice. 
4. 
   
5. 3. wait for others to show better results, and be happy with what they earn. Precaution should be priority.

I rather want to be the no. 2. I wanna make money fast. But can I? Multi Level Marketing is not east. Cooperation to find underground dealers is a must, must be filthy diligent to find buyers and must be very optimistic of what lies ahead. After seeing how, some of them who joined the venture, could gained up to RM30 K for three months, roused my goosebumps and anxiety. For sure, money can't bring to death, but death needs money, for kain kapan, tanah kubur and etc. Right?

The Past and The Present

Assalamualaikum to anyone who kindly spend some time to read this post, and also to those who kindly and accidentally open up this space of mine. A space, where I 'talk' in words regarding what happened in my daily life. Praises to our beloved Prophet Muhammad s.a.w, the greatest caliph that always have us in his remembrance. Thanks to dear mom and dad for their present until now, and for their non-stop effort of raising my siblings and I. 

It has almost reaching one year, after I finished the burden of SPM off my shoulder and head. Now, pity the juniors at school, who kept posting in Facebook and elsewhere about their woes and worries for the exam. What I did, was to laugh at them, and smile, since I had faced it with a smile. At least, a cynical smile. Most of them, are still lazybums, and haven't get it ready. What they could do to erase that laziness is sleep. I mean, sleep does help to freshen up the brain, since laziness is mostly due to prolonged exposure to small texts and intricate words, that put pressure to the brain. Sleep and rest, don't sit in front of the pc and look at the screen so often. It will make your laziness worsen and headache fired. 

My little sister is also enduring her finale at school. At 14, and 8 subjects to grasp, she is strongwilled. She's intelligent for anything except Bahasa Melayu. Her composition needs to be brushed up a little, well can't blame her. She's been learning to much in English since elementary school, that's why her Bahasa is quite rusty. Nonetheless, she inherited my way of learning by which is reading out loud the notes and the texts that needed to be memorized. T.T

But, please, when she gave me those examination papers that she already did for me to check I would reject them right away. Mom said, "Go check her English MCQ paper", and I was like "OH NO". Basically, my days of rechecking exam papers or any test papers are extinct. I hope others will too, because just remember that whatever you did in the past, are bygones. Let them go away and let only the memories stay behind. 

Adding to the sigh, my brother's friend, asked me about Biology Paper 3 for SPM format. I mean, come on don't they take a look at previous papers, the abundant exercises that any bookstores would sell for such low prices??? And, didn't the teachers at school tell them what the format would be like? Or yeah, maybe they just don't care till the eleventh hour when everything comes to end wits.

Whatever it is, I wish super best of luck to any youngsters who are going to take their finale before the long school holidays. Yeah, one day a friend of mine from VI aged 17, nagging about how terrible his trial SPM, and making jokes about letting me to do it. I am sorry from heart, it is just an exam. Do your best in understanding how to tackle the questions. I always did my exercises by looking at the answers located at the back page. It works and helps. So, goodluck, everyone has his or her own ways to make things work. For now, get the spirit up people! 

>>p/s: face this battle. only losers walk backwards.<<

We Were BbF!

Life was meant to be cherished by having BBF! B E S T F R I E N D 4 E V E R

just like how Serena and Blair from Gossip Girl.

Albeit, half of my life flew away from my soul 

All the M E M O I R S I had with you,

keep me from tumbling down and help me to move on...

T H A N K S ,  G I R L, 4 B E E N T H E R E 4 M E <3

When you smile,

 I |S M I L E |W I T H |U

Have Faith

A man name Gerald is about to climb a mountain. He wants to do it all alone. He wants to crave a history, for being the first French man to have conquered the mountain solo. The mountain was said to be a hazard for all climbers. Many of them never return, and so the mountain was called "Deadly Peak". Gerald's friends told him that he won't make it to the peak and they also concern about the whole act. Some of his climbers friends were willing to follow him, but he was reluctant to be accompanied. And, so he did. All alone, climbing the Deadly Peak.

It was cold and dark. But, Gerald was stubborn to stop. He wanted to reach the peak as fast as he could. To crave a history, is all he has bearing in his mind. His legs were shaking, he felt swelled on his cheeks but he did not stop. A couple of hours later, he finally made it to the peak. The sky was dark and all cloudy, no stars appeared to bring light. He screamed of joy even though his voice of triumph was unheard. Suddenly, a rush strong cold wind blew hard over his body. He lost balanced and fell down of the peak.

"GOD, help!!!!" He screamed.

He was lucky as he could take a grasped on a big stem. But he could not hold on for long. To his shock, a loud-voice appeared from nowhere. The sky turned very dark and lightning thundered several times.

"Gerald! Do not hold on! Just fall! You will save" said the unknown voice.

"Are you God? Save me!" pledge Gerald, crying and shivering.

" Just let go!" said the unknown voice.

" I am afraid! I won't let go. I won't" said Gerald, stubbornly. 

And thunders bolting hard on the sky. Soon it rained, till morning say hi. Days later, the police were looking for Gerald, after days of his disappearance. Everyone at home was worried. His family was informed that he's dead. His frosted body was found hanging tightly to the big stem. And, he was just hung 4 feet above the ground! People at town, was in grief, knowing that if only Gerald just let go of the branch, he would have been saved and might be smiling of his victory. But, sadly, he has no FAITH. When, faith is fragile, we all will be ruined. If only if he had faith. God wanted to give him a chance to live, but he disbelieved and now he's gone forever. 

As Gerald's passed away, the mountain is keep on been consoled as the Deathly Peak. No one ever returns and so did Gerald. His journey was a triumph for many of his friends, but a waste for him.

P/S: Strengthen your faith towards the Creator and so you will never lead astray.

Time to say thanks!

I've been so busy trying to catch on my additional math problems, till I abandoned some of the other subjects that I have to cope on. Okay, stresses that what I have right now. Stress to maintain my capability in school although I guarantee that I am no longer able to do any more notes and essays properly by the time I reach next year.

So, after finishing with my folding clothes chore, I help myself in front of the computer, came online and at the same time, finishing all my delayed-work of Biology, and guess what, I have another work upstairs. *T_T*{crying}

As I went through my mails, there were these motivation articles sent by a cyber friend, whom I got to know a couple of weeks before. Well yeah, maybe he knew I am in depression. So here I want to say thanks to Hafiz >oh he's online< for being thoughtful.

Not only to Hafiz, but to Naqib or better known as Qubezo, for trying hard to solve my additional mathematics questions. He did them very well and I just so bad in add math now. (consequence for being a stuck-up probably). So lucky to have an ingenious friend like him.

So another person whom I wish to say thanks to is Rafaiz, I don't know what his real name is, but nevermind. He did the work done for my add math questions in the malakat92 forum, neat and tidy. (Baru faham:))

Oh, and before I forget to Vick too for solving my physics question and Azeem for the tutorial game. Man, I dont know if I'm sick or what, but i'm feeling cold.*SHIVERING*

And for Kak Intan, thanks for holding a great party yesterday, I have fun at the pool. *dah lama tak swim, bile dapat swin, jadi kekok*

ok, thats all
my verbal bashings
hahaha
credits to the people mentioned above.
:) *grin*