Burger and Physics Lecture

Got this story from my roommate here in USA :)

Back in ASASI, there was a guy whose name started with the letter P. He looked intelligent and yeah, not just looked intelligent, he can be considered as a genius.

Most boys at asasi were excellent in Physics. And so was P. 

One day, there was Physics Lecture conducted by our famous male Physics' lecturer: none other than Prof Ahmad or people better knew him as Che Mat.

Like always the projector went crazy, thus the slides could not be projected and jeopardizing the whole mood to listen to the lecture. 

Che Mat had this good vibes with P. He asked P to go to the office and find the technician. And thus, P obeyed the old man.

On the way to the office, P who was chewing a gum needed to throw the gum away. He couldn't do so since he had no paper to wrap the chewed gum. He then, stick it to a wall nearby. However, before he reached the office, he felt guilty for doing so. He must think of something that would enable him to get at least one piece of paper to wrap the gum, and easily dumped it into the trash bin.

So, what P did was that, he asked someone else who was going to the office, to inform about the projector at the lecture hall- meanwhile he went away to the cafe and bought himself a burger. Why a burger???

P took quite a while before returning to the lecture hall. The lecture almost end, there came P with his fulled mouth. Che Mat asked him what took him so long- and saw the burger in his hands. However, the bizzarre thing was that, P didn't get scolded or at least insulted. Instead, Che Mat, saw him and smile.

After the lecture ended, P told his friends that he went to the cafe and got a burger because he needed a piece of paper to wrap his chewed gum - so that it could be 'appropriately' thrown into the trash bin. HahahhahahhXD

But P is a physics' brainiac. He got A+ in both semesters and why would he care about attending lectures. Plus, Che Mat, had once offered him a place for Physics course at UiTM if he had no other option later on in his life. And to get such offer, is not easy.

Between Choices, Choose and Life

Life is short to do the wrong job, life is too short to choose a wrong person to be your soul mate and life is always short to do every choices that we have. Generally, life is all about choices and life. Choose the right one? How do you know what you chose is the right one? Is there any signal that shows? 

tossing a coin is an option ....only an option

For Muslims, it is better to BELIEVE that even when one choice seems bad, it doesn't mean that choice is BAD on Allah's side and even when the other choice seems great, doesn't mean it's the BEST for us. Destiny is vital to believe in, but choose yours. Humans make mistake in their lives and mistakes are GIFT to test on perseverance to seek for HIS guides and GIFT to reborn to the better. I have been using the word REBORN a couple of times, and it doesn't mean we turned the time to the past, and return to being born again, rather, it simply means transform into someone much more worth to live.

Life is short. Live well.

I post this for those who are in the search to go to Universities or to plan for their future in upgrading themselves. I am not a great achiever so don't think that my life is great either. For SPM leavers, there are a lot of choices out there. Some have been lucky to be called upon interviews, for the good results they had in hand they might have a 50-50 chance to go abroad. While they are also those who haven't scored quite well but there's no fret about that. I certainly think SPM is a platform to choose your career path but not all who can attain places at college will turn out to be successful. Never quit learning. Never stop having the intention to learn and obtain knowledge and skills. 

certainly had great time at both foundations

My story- the summary

Finishing SPM at the latest date among many of my friends because of the many subjects I took. Determined to do medicine at my own cost, I went for a pre-med course cum foundation studies at a private college. I was utterly shocked to know how AMAZINGLY bright the Chinese at that place and some of the Indians too. I was happy there, since we study because of one reason; to FLY. I was also having fun to study ruskee with some of the greatest colleagues and friends. Around May, I was 'forced' at heart to start foundation again at Universiti Puncak Alam. 

Well as you can see, for the past almost a year, I have been posting ramblings and whining and MUTTERING, all sorts of them to talk badly about dear UiTM Puncak Alam. Now, I finished it smoothly. I rarely truant classes, except for some of math classes, during first semester then I repented because of the bad results for semester one's. I am not a star either at that place even though I have quite this feeling of cocky to pass it with RAINBOWS since I have learnt most of what they taught me during first semester. Guess, I was just TOO COCKY and that fired me back when I just managed to score moderately. Frust gila masa tu! During semester two, my learning route was not smooth. I endured a great failure in tests and almost gone lunatic. I cried because of despair and pain, almost giving up, but luckily my comrades were always on my side. Non-stop they have been my courage and my family. They had taught me to value the meaning of patience which I lack at. They taught me that Allah is always there for me. From that events, I learn and understand why Allah S.W.T put me there at the first place. It is the best place for me to know myself.

Going abroad at such a immature age, could be the worst decision for me. Listening to THREE medical students at Russia on how they sustain their lives, how they went through their lives as hectic medical students and how is the condition they are in now as well as some advice they poured me with about the bad decision to go there for medical degree, had somehow brighten my eyes and mind about the decision to go there at first. Hehehe:D But for my acquaintances who are studying at Russia, no offence for you guys. You guys have been enduring the greatest moments in your lives. This is about me after all.

Besides that, now that I have completed asasi and just another couple of months before going for my degree, there have been a lot to be thinking of. My dilemma is what to go for after this, whether it be dentistry or medicine. Medicine is my first choice and have always been my only choice, even the ENTIRE family knew about this. They have been supportive up till now, but then my heart changes a bit to love dentistry. Because as days passed, I am also thinking about 10 years from now. Being a dentist is tough at first and even tougher than studying for a medical degree. However, I am sure that by 10 years, a dentist can secure a very good financial status and this can be beneficial to women, who will start off a family and having kids. You know this is out of border but at 19 everyone should have think about this because LIFE IS SHORT.

Been planning a back up for my degree for the past one week. A back up plan for private Universitas. To be frank, I have bad intuition for private colleges. You know, that private colleges are quite expensive and therefore I have this weird feeling to apply for them. Deep in heart, I really wish for local universitas where I am sure to get JPA to sponsor, in that way, I could have less worries in my head. Right? I hate thinking of money while studying. It jeopardizes the spirit. 

I quit my intention to go to Cyberjaya Med School after it bad sides had been upfront recently even though it can be the BEST private institution to go for its location. MAHSA is also at the very edge considering that it has not produce any medical graduates yet, so I barely knew the quality. Right now, I already intend to apply for UniKL because it is under MARA and it alone. I don't know about Allianze Medical College. Emm, I am so in dilemma. But, the important part is pray. Allah alone can help me.

For kids out there or juniors, choose the right one and the best you can go for. I have another story; a friend name Ben chatted with me recently. He once got one offer to study at UTP under Petronas financial support, which means he will be able to work under Petronas as soon as he completes his studies. He got an offer to go for mechanical engineering which he then rejected. I asked him why since not many can surpass the Petronas application. He told me that his Physics is not very good, thus it would gives him a drench to do that course. Now, he has no regrets and he plans to go for medicine too. In conclusion, do what the best you can do. Don't do something just because you wanted it, but because you know that you can do it. The rest leaves  to Allah. 

>>>p/s: I have problems blogging. It has not been as smooth as before. Perhaps, I have suddenly have nothing to tell>>>

The odd feelings

Assalamualaikum. As I am posting this down, I am already at home for 2 days by now. But this feel odd, real odd. Something ain't right, something ain't good, and too clueless to figure it out.

19th March 2010- The historic date of my life, whereby I actually ended my life as UiTM Puncak Alam's student. Asasi or foundation ended, just moved to a complete full stop by 11 am. To cut it clear, it has not even been a complete 365 days living on the peak of the jungle and it seemed so short somehow or rather. Alah dayana, mengaku je! You are actually sad to leave that place! Kan kan kan???

On 19th March itself, it didn't feel THIS SAD. I admit that I rushed to go home, seriously called my mom the night before, asking her to come pick me up early so that won't be stuck in the traffic. Silly me. Where got traffic jam on Saturday, lol. But, that's was my BEST reason, to go home as quick as lightning. Clearance was scheduled by 9 am that morning. Every bit of my things were piled in the apartment's living room. So did my housemates' things. We were just ready to get back home. 

Felt the last refreshing moment stepping down the deathly stairs steps, hurrying down to go to FF2, somehow quite far from the peak of the hill. It was an excitement to have the last memory of stepping down on the steps. Reached the FF2, the place where tutorials will always be conducted. Feeling the joy taking the lift for the last time, and catching up with the Puncak Alam introductory ad in the lift for the last time. It was making me hard to even swallow my saliva down the throat, feeling of this sadness that could not been described. 

Munsyi was the last test to be accomplished. 300 questions were answered without a problem. And WHOOSH, it's eleven.....a mark for the end of asasi life. Right after we were told that we can go out from the hall, I quickly hugged each and every classmates who were close to me. Hugged Sara twiced, and hugged Christyne, who is sooo helpful during Chem Lab. Dina, my 1st asasian friend that I met, grabbed me by chance outside the hall, and we squeezed each other a farewell cuddle. It was nice:) The Kedah's Korean fans, and the Sweet Kelantanese girls, all of them are superbs and got one nice warm hug from me. hehehe. Thanks to everybody:) They have been nice. 

One person I didn't get the chance to bid goodbye was my roommate. Well, never find a way to be closer and to mingle with her. It was hard because I am a fool in someways. I hope she's doing fine where ever she are now. And to my dear ROOM D's housemates, Hajira and Adibah, you two were awesomers. Sorry for the late night bothering, just to get some good friendly chats. Thanks for all the stupid non-stop laughter we end up for. They were good. Ira and Adib from Room C were remarkable, fun in their own way. Room B's Huda and Ema were two shiny jewels. You too are babies in the house, yet so kind and fun. Haahaa. Tapi pelikkan?? I haven't got any of their photos with me. Feel so dumb right now.

Perhaps leaving Puncak Alam early was not a good idea. But it just happened to be that way. It was hectic that day whereby the lift were overloaded every single time. I used the lift 5 times just to take my things down to the car. Fuh it was tiring. And, it was so in a rush, thus so many things were undone....T.T. Now, I just lean back and reminisce of the good moments I had there. The wonderful five star lecturers, the young amazing tutors, the chill tutorial rooms, the sometimes hot-sometimes chill lecture halls, the every-day crowded cafe at the campus, the so-not-amazing Pendeta Restaurant, the nice view from the room's window,  the everyday-same-menu Rafflesia, the so-small-irritating minimart, the relaxing beautiful suraus, the informative Islamic lectures at Musolah Angsana, the amazing laboratories, the offices, the library, and the padang kawad, plus soo many places I have stepped on, keep on rewinding in this brain. Wish it could stop, because it brings me tears. Tears of the odd feelings. -the end-

>>>p/s: eh lupa nak mention about one guy named Calvin. Well, thanks Calv, for being a very nice friend, even though I sometimes treat you like trash. I am sometimes dumb and harsh, please forgive me? hehehe. And, one thing tetap tak puas hati. My UiTM album ain't complete! Dush!<<<

tiada apa lagi

Physics came as expected. Easy yet tricky. Hmmm...just could rest everything to Allah. 3 hours seem just like 3 minutes, and BOOM asasi ended, with a frown on everybody's face. Perhaps we were tired, of not sleeping for three days to revise Physics. And, throw away all the books FOR GOD SAKE. Just have a good rest and fun before September comes. 

But, one thing I am having a sad feeling about is that, all my friends seem to be not in the mood. Just as Physics ended, I thought we were going for something fun to do, at least lunch together? Sadly, everyone walked on separate paths, and the day just flew like that. How boring.

So, perhaps, there are nothing much left I can do around the campus. Done with the cycling, done with the morning jog, with the Gym, eating at Pendeta, hanging out at the library and use the staircases, so what else? None. That's why, it's telling me that, I should go home. And Drashvihdahniya Puncak Alam Campus.

>>>p/s: wanna snap picture with this guy. but I am so shy. aigooo....<<<<

Last Physics Lecture

3rd March noted the end of Physics Lecture. Maybe and maybe not, we will stumble upon Physics during our degree. Will be missing Prof Ahmad to the maxx after we left asasi. Credit picture to D1.

its tomorrow, next week and the next one week

3 weeks la to go. hehehe. for the finale. I am like having premature contractions in the heart. Lol. Seriously, banyak gila stuff that needed to be stuffed inside the brain, but just pray for strength, and good memories. After all, not everything we learn in Asasi is gonna to be applied in the degree we're about to take. This is fact, told by many who had encountered the same thing.

Tomorrow Chemistry Test. On Monday, it gonna be Physics, Mathematics on following Tuesday and Biology on Thursday. Test II fnishes next week, insyaAllah. Have to struggle harder, because damn I flunked on the last time, and this give me a sign of fright. 

Saya dah mandi, segar-bugar, dan kelas ended early. How I love Wednesday. Sadly, today, there's no chance to watch movies with the comrades. Everyone is under stressful condition. Me too to add up. Planned to see lecturers to ask questions, but then again something came up. And the plans became just plainly plans. Now better not talking to the blog, and started revising chemistry. T.T

Anyhow, goodluck for all asasians fighters for tomorrow. Many of them here are awesome. And, Goodluck too for the finale a week after the test. Let's everyone wear batik on the last FINALE-exam day, shall we?

>>>p/s: enough coupon collected. and it's another week of lecture and tutorials. is this sad?<<<

Bertemu kembali

Cikgu Fazly was my caunselor back then when I was form 3 and form 4. He was doing some thesis or some project with his friends 4 years ago. My caunsellor at school, Cikgu Linda was his senior, so he came to our school and select some students for a motivational program. I was one of them, and that was the first time I met him actually, because I was in his group with several other friends. After so many years, losing contact with him, because I lost my phone that contains his number and had a new one, I finally met him again even though not in person.

To be frank, when my friends and I saw the advertisement telling us that there will be a motivational concert by UNIC, I was not even close to have been intrigued. I just have no intrigue feeling to join that musical and whatsoever, because I am not their fan and knowing any of their songs. Lol. But, on that Monday, at campus, on the way back to hostel, Dina and Azyan bought the ticket, which cost only RM5, and like always I was influenced. So, I too bought the ticket. I was destined to go.

The concert was held at the faraway DK500 hall of Puncak Alam campus, on the very day of the Maulidur Rasul. Even a few hours before the concert started, I already went lazy to attend and you know, the feeling of reluctant to getting ready for any event, because of so many other things to handle. But, like I tell you earlier, I WAS DESTINED TO GO. And so I did.

Waited for Dina and her housemates at the stairs, which was just in front of my block at 7.50 p.m, and luckily Dina came with a smile, because lately she has always been uncheerful. And that's apparently hurts me sometimes. Congratulations to the organisers of the concert, for making it a wonderful one. We reached there early and alhamdulillah, got the front seats, I mean REAL FRONT SEATS. Sat there still for half an hour, and the musical only started after that. Perhaps the members of the UNIC got lost because it's easy for people to get lost on their way to UiTM Puncak Alam. But they will be amazed once they saw our campus! **(Proud being one of thousands inhabitants in this gigantic beautiful campus)**

Began with a fresh introduction by confident emcees, through some singing and jokes, was fun. And, the members of the group were fun too! I mean, imagine, they are nasyeed groups and still can do good jokes without needing to touch sensitive issues. I would gave them 10/10 on their way of connecting to the audiences. Plus, I thanked GOD for destined me to sit at the front, to see Cikgu Fazly again and to hear the other two members sing harmoniously and melodiously on the stage, crystal clear. :))) I had a rejoice. I bet everyone in the hall had too. 

The nasyeed group is 9 years old now, had won a platinum award for their album and their songs are great. I regret for not noticing them earlier and knowing their songs, while elses in the hall knew most of their songs. T.T. The members of the group had decreased due to the fact that most of the old members could not give full commitments to the group, so now left with only three members, including Cikgu Fazly, Bazli and Fakhrul. Bazli is the longest member that last, and the other two can be considered new. Fakhrul is the newest member. He was actually the Grand Winner of Akademi AL Quran program, on TV9. His voice is mesmerizing. Once hearing him recite one suratul Quran that night, I almost cry. It was beautiful. 

Then, the musical continued with some activity. They called two guys to the stage, and they had to sing in front of everybody. Jokes was everywhere. We were not bored at all! That's the best part. They motivated the two guys to be confident in front of the crowd. One of them spotted to be the most confident, because he can sing well, and he won the battle. Lol. The other one, was shy probably. But, I congatulated both of them for being sporting that night. 

Only one thing, happened to be a dismay that night. The audiences were not sporting enough, to sing along the UNIC members when the asked us too. Well, I can be excluded since I didn't know any of their songs, and luckily, they set the lyrics on the screen for us to follow. The UNIC members, especially Cikgu Fazly was so funny, and he had always been, since I first knew him in 2007. Bazli was funny too, and Fakhrul is a bit of a shy but he can do jokes sometimes. Basically, all three were amazing performers and motivators. 

The concert ended with a slide show, of a story, regarding what happened during the day that our beloved Prophet passed away. It showed us how the friends of Prophet Muhammad feeling despair after knowing the news of Prophet's demise. Saidina Umar Al Khattab, didn't believe it first because he was so sad that his friend was gone forever. Bilal bin Rabah on the other hand, swore that he would never sing the azan after that because he was mourning for Prophet's death. Years after the Prophet's gone, the friends met again, and Bilal bin Rabah was asked to sing the azan. He was reluctant at first, but he accepted it after asked again. And when he sing the azan, and the Prophet's friends prayed, they cried and burst into tears, feeling how they once could pray with Prophet S.A.W, but not anymore. The slide show did touched our hearts and I almost bursts into tears. That's showed the true value of friendship. And, the members then sang a song entitled Sahabat Sejati. I bestowed, and thank God for letting me sense the worth of having true friends here at Puncak Alam:)

Merely around 11 pm, the concert came to the end. Everyone was sad, because it was such an enjoyable moment ever. Once out from the hall, a photography session was held with the UNIC members. Unfortunately, there was no chance at all for me and my friends, to capture at least one rememberance photo with the UNIC group members. I was feeling a bit frustrated for now having the opportunity to greet Cikgu Fazly and apologize for not attending his wedding, in Kelantan 3 years ago. Still have the invitation card at home :)

From left: Fazly, Bazli and Fakhrul, amazing motivators and singers.

Nonetheless, it was the first night ever, did I went down to campus besides going to lectures and tutorials. And it was a worthsome event that I ever encountered. It's such a lost for those who didn't go. RM5 was nothing compared to the fun that we had and if they do come again, I will be in the first row's spectator again! 

>>>p/s: Semoga cikgu Fazly berjaya di dunia dan diakhirat. He was a great teacher, a good listener, and a good motivator<<<

Quizzies,Tests and Miscellaneous

Weekends turns into weekdays right now. Absolutely, a no way for me to spend my weekends at home at least till the finale is over. Mom told me to just stay cool at Puncak Alam and study hard. I on the other hand, could just say yes, and nodd with everything she said.

My left ear is a sore again due to excessive earwax. I am basically halfly deaf. But whatever. On last Sunday, there was a family day held by my hostel block. I was supposed to be the comittee, but because I didn't show up at the last meeting two days before, my name was nowhere to be found in the list. Pathetic isn't it? Just because that one damn meeting. I was frustrated, because I can't make good vibes with the other girls here on the block. Networking isn't expanding and that's kinda sad. Who said, at UiTM you can gain friends easily? Well, maybe it is me, who at fault, but I did try but fail. T...T

Nontheless, my housemates won something, even though I didn't get any benefit from that. Congratulations to them. Em, college is boring. Same thing happening over and over. Tomorrow night, a class party is gonna be held somewhere around the block, but I don't care a damn thing about it anymore, because they are already so many people caring about it. Lol. All I care about is my coupon. 2 more! And perhaps tonight, I'll get another. I am attending UNIC concert tonight even though I am not actually a fan. I was peered influenced. Hehe.

Next week, on the 24th February, I will have to sit for Chemistry Test, or Physics if I was not mistaken. I am soooooo chill in a bone. I don't know whether I will do fine or otherwise because I am so afraid the same thing that happened during the first test to haunt me. This semester is a no comfortable zone, and no paradise for me. I feel living giving up already after so many things I encountered. Maybe I am just not gifted? On the same occassion, mathematica quizzy will be held next week too on the same day. I will be blasted off by the permutation questions and probability all those, which I never quite understand the concept. T...T. Do we need to know this as in to apply it in adulthood? I don't think so, but we always have to study things like crap, without having time to really understand them. And this is the nightmare of our education system, even though it has been ranked the 4th best education system in the world. Bangga la Datuk Najib kita, zzz.

28th February then 1st March then 3rd March, these are the dates for the test. I am scared as anyone would, but knowing my 4 flatters friends being scared too, tickled my funny bone. If they are scared, how much more should I be? Lol. Then, the syllabus will end by 6th March. After that, off for study week, before starting the battle for finale on the 10th March, AND ending asasi with USM MUNSYI TEST on the 19th March, and by that, farewell UiTM Puncak Alam. 

Yeah...I can't wait for everything to end, because I seriously need to go home. I admit I have homesick. So what? I also realise I have less friends here. Other than friends that I usually hang out with, none others would I should called friends. I am not good at making friends and be one. And on the sweetness of a day off from college like NOW, I have no friend to do good things together. Sedihnya. haha.

>>>p/s: maybe I am not gifted to victory in this mortal world, and maybe I am born just to be average<<<

countdown end of asasi

Macam lame jer tajuk ahahaha. Like always, my first paragraph will sound like this: It's feels so fast and only like yesterday we met at Puncak Alam as foundation students. Lol. Deep down inside, I must admit that the feeling of sad is there, leaving behind new friends who turned out into best friends. But before bursting for tears, let's chillax and continue to study madly for upcoming test 2 and the finale.

"Lagi tiga minggu je lagi, Dayana"....said Christyne, my lovely Sabah new girlfriend. "Tiga minggu...? What do you mean?"...I asked, a bit of a slowpoke to catchup what she meant. "Lagi tiga minggu bersama kawan-kawan awak laaa" said Chrystine. 

Yeahh...on second thought, it is gonna be another three weeks here. Three weeks is not that long. Less than a month, but, when can I have the last time to enjoy to the maxx with my friends here. You see, in 3 months, there are lotsa things to do. Sometimes, I reflex myself and see others. Most of the students here can easily go out, here and there, not doing tutorials but still manage to somehow gain something. I on the other hand, who did seriously nothing called FUN, and all I did was merely sitting down burning my chair studying like crap, still earned nothing that I can jot as satisfaction. I am just lowerly average. Why is that?

Maybe because I seriously do not know how to manage my time. I am not wise in managing things and that's why I don't wanna be a business figure. Lol. Last time, I thought Reproduction was the last chapter of Biology, but again I was wrong. Two more chapters: Nervous System And Genetic on the way, I already feel like fainting. 5 more chapter for Physics is damn scary. Imagine, I am still stuck at chapter 26 on the Kirchoff's rule (sorry if most readers here do not know what this is), and how am I gonna keep on track another 5 chapters! I am gonna be lunatic. Last chapter of mathematics is Probability Distribution which is sooo confusing. I never enjoyed doing probability and tree diagrams T___T. Chemistry is okay I guess, but gotta this assignment to be submitted by Monday, and have not start any yet. DUSSHHHH! 4 subjects but they feels soo heavy:(

Sometimes, when I feel a bit of a mess up like NOW, all I am thinking of is to go home and see mummy and daddy. I am childish, and I don't feel rejunevating to study here, because God Knows why. Seeing my roommate non-sleep doing her massive studying is like giving me nothing but annoyed. I am just annoyed seeing others studying so bad, without effort to take care of herself. I am not a fan of studying hard and looked pathetic. It gives me a sense of hatred out of nowhere. But, if she did score more than I did, a congratulation will she hears from me. And I do think she will. ;-(

Yesterday, even though campus hours ended earlier than any other days, I didn't even have the effort to at least go back to room and continue revising like any other good students will do. Instead, I went watching Black Swan again with my comrades but too bad the sound was bad, so we stopped it in the middle, and continue watching a ghost story. Watching a korean ghost story, with lame subtitles is damn crazy. Most of the way, we made assumptions on what happened. The ghost story wasn't that scary at ALL by the way, it happened to funny instead. Posting in Facebook, that I have a headache watching the ghost story and then I got this comment by Prof Ahmad saying: 

"Reading Giancoli, won't give you a headache!" FRIGHTENS me. 

It's like he knows that I already wasted my time lol. But whatever. 

>>>p/s: I hate feeling hungry at Puncak Alam because I seriously do not know what to eat<<<

Semester 2 chapter 5

Basically, I have no good title for this post. Anyhow, I am relieved that the Internet connection in Egypt has been okay. Tonnes of Malaysian students there are now returning to Facebook updating their well-being status. Hopefully, Bahjah and Nur Izzah Syafiqah are doing fine over there. Our prayers are with them amin:)

An Egyptian soldier been kissed by his mom on his way to serve for the nation. Allahuakbar!

Right now, I am enduring the Chinese New Year holidays which is only a mere 4 days at home, where else in the whole life world could I have been staying? Home is nice, but seriously, I miss having my pet cat around. Lopek, my pet cat ran away late last year, maybe because she is already too old for we to take care off, so she went away with troop of other cats, perhaps migrating to a place where she can find more food and love. We tried to throw her away one day, putting her in the laundry basket, capping it with a cloth, but she managed to unwrapped the cloth and almost attacked us in the car. She has been a very cute and adorable, loving cat, giving us the chances to play with her bunches of beautiful kittens, but none of them last, so yeah, now no more cats around.

Holidays like always mean absolutely nothing rather than continuing my sleeping schedule and going back to track, finishing up my piles of homeworks, doing my laboratory report, going online and yeah, movie marathon. Weeks at college had been fine lately, despite the high momentum of Physics to catch up with. Prof Ahmad was right about not having fun with this year's Physics. Everything is a mess. I am sick of every single thing that is so hard because I am so slow to catch them up.

Laboratories will end by next week I am supposed, which will be a thrill because we can return to our rooms early. Class party will be held around next week too, a barbeque event is said to be done, at the Gazebo around my block, a sukaneka thingy will be organised by my hostel block, because the President is soooo fun. I am not going to play in any of the games because practically every house heads MUST be the committee. So, I would just rather handle the Teka Gaya game, and that's why I spent my whole evening playing teka gaya on Tuesday. 

Noticing that I only have 5 coupons scares me like crap. Most of my friends already finished collecting 8 because they are lucky enough. The dinner committees got full marks for the co-curriculum part because the they worked days and nights for it, despite the bad stories behind what happened after the event, until most lecturers were shocked seeing photos of several science students doing syisha thingy. 3 MORE TO GO! so I better be more productive these upcoming weeks. InsyaAllah two important events will I show myself up too. Hopefully, coupons are available. I am sooooo scared of everything already!

Friends in the same group, are now busy capturing photos as remembrances and memories. Uploading them in facebook and tagged me, is what I called the easiest part of the technological world. I am sick of taking photos with my phone and thanks to them, that I at least could have something to keep. Besides that, I have reestablished equilibrium with my roommate, and she started it first. That's a wow. And, yeah, I am not a good in coaxing sulking people, so if you knew me, don't sulk, because I won't coax you till you melt.

Frustration is still happening at college. One thing to complain about is the atm machine at the Raflessia Hall. It kept running out of bank slips and that burdens some of us that REALLY need the slips for further reference. On last Friday, I was about to pay for my electricity bill which cost me RM30. The bank at Raff went crazy for running out of slips. Others who were also wanna pay that damn bill, went to the boy's side, Angsana which is a little faraway from Rafflesia. I could sensed that the ATM there would be crowded, so I decided to descend to the campus. I took the road less taken here because by that time, I knew there will be less people at the ATM downstairs. So, yeah I WAS RIGHT AT LAST. Only me and my friend Sarah were there, so I thanked god because this time the slip was available. But the worst part of all was that, I climbed the dozens of baby steps to the top, and almost dessicate my throat and damaging my diaphragm. It was crappy tiring to go downstairs and climb upstairs in a short period. I quickly headed to Rafflesia and the office, gave the officer the damn slip and got the three crappy stickers for my electric appliances. What a crap tiring adventure for such a pathetic thing ever!

At 9 p.m, when my parents came to pick me up, they consoled me for being slimmer even though I knew they were lying. Families are the greatest liars of all time but they are the best listeners that one could ever has. Hahaha:)

>>>p/s: I would rather be pleased if you could say it clearly that you wanna SEE AND MEET ME. I don't eat people nor punch people. I am just shy. <<<

maafkan saya

I apologize deeply for making you people expecting a lot from me. I apologize for not performing better for this year. Something change in me this year. Perhaps my brain is no longer like before. Perhaps I have been bad to people that all these coming backfired at me like every single time. Sudah jatuh, ditimpa pula tangga.Aduh sakitnya!

I feel sorry for mom and dad. They have been my greatest listener to all my whining, to all my muttering about these and thats that didn't satisfy me. I kept burdening and making inflammations in their ears for complaining about how bad I have been and how pathetically I have done in my previous test 1. I want to make a correction to the previous mistakes I have done, but the more I tried, the more worse it becomes.

Last year, I was too bad forcing them to let me having what I wanna pursue. This year, Allah showed HIS POWER by putting me in this condition whereby everything I did nothing seems working. Astaghfirullahalazim. I repented. I regret for the things and troubles I caused my parents to deal up with. I am so ashamed of myself. I should have think wisely and I should have not been so selfish.

Another problem rises after the other. I have this misunderstanding with my roommate at college. And it all happened due to the fact that I switched off her morning alarm, because they kept ringing non-stop, and she didn't wake up for GOD SAKE! I who wish for a peace night, couldn't find any peace because of her unstoppable alarm so I went to her side, and just switch off the damn alarm. I can't get it why she has to set alarms every hour starting the moment she went to bed. Do you think you can wake up in an hour after dozing off at night? Have your rest well and if you wish to wake up early, don't ever think that you can wake up at 2 am, if you went to bed at 12 am? That's crazy. I am so annoyed of this person, so we have this cold war, and couldn't speak to each other for the moment. Whatever.

Seeing how my comrades excel so well in the test 1 scares me. When they ask how did I do, and I told them what EXACTLY I got for the papers, I could see the faces of disappointment. Words of advices pouring into my ear, but I am afraid, like so afraid that I couldn't do good after this. I am so sick of working hard but lacking the luckiness. I am sick of becoming weak at everything. I tried to console myself, that everything has it's silver lining. And that probably the least I can think of. Mom kept reminding me of one suratul Baqarah from the Holy Quran, which said that one thing that you hated the most might be the best thing that ever happened to you. And also, the thing you loved the most, could be the worst thing for you. Above all, seek Allah for guidance, for HE knows best. Astaghfirullahalzim. 

Mom, told me to be strong like Prophet Ayoub. Who stands still beside Allah. Praying day and night. Diligently obligate to Allah. He had once become rich and healthy. In a sudden, Allah tested his strength by taking away all that he had. Allah tested him again, with a disease that make him weaker. Then, came the devils, whispering awful things to him. Telling him to follow them instead praying hard for Allah's forgiveness. But, days after days, week after weeks, and later years by years, Prophet Ayoub A.S still confident that Allah is The One the Almighty One that he had to serve for. He never missed his prayers and so, His prayers were answered by Allah S.W.T. Allah blessed him with more wealth and prosperous health. 

The test I am enduring perhaps not as tough as what Prophet Ayoub A.S encountered. I must not be weak and rendering myself useless. I must stand up straight and walk and run if I can for the better way and better days. I should have been stronger after these weakening events. I should have been struggling harder both in my obligations towards ALLAH the Greatest and also towards the studies that I have to brushing up at. 

>>>p/s: Pray for strength rather than having good events. Because everything has it's own thorns, don't let get yourself hurt<<<

Speed to SACC

"Abang firdaus tolong speed boleh tak?" my request to my cousin, on our way to SACC convention centre on Saturday the 22nd January. He drove my friends and I to the very place for a dinner that we CHOOSE to attend. He looked at me, and replied, "No hal la".

Mak Teh's family has been so nice for letting my friends and I to stay a night at their house. My cousins who have been very loving and generous, every and each of them offered to drive us to SACC that night. Thanks to Abang Pai a lot, for picking us up at Puncak Alam. He first thought I studied at Puncak Perdana so he went there looking for me, calling me 1 hour before he arrived, asking me whether I lived around an apartment of unknown name. I immediately told him that he was actually at the wrong place. Haha.

Arriving at Mak Teh's house, TWO nice cosy rooms specially prepared for us, five of us. But, because this is the first time we had a slumber party and living under one roof, we preferred sleeping in one room. Even one room was already good enough for us:) Plus, we had wonderful lunches too!

I admit that on our attempt to getting ready for that One Night Gala dinner, I felt soooo nervous from nowhere. Why would I feel such a thing even for a mere dinner? Lol. Maybe because I wasn't that confident of my appearance. Well, as a GIRL, I too wanna look good. I also feel that my dress for that night was too simple. Hehe. So, we had a hard time actually, because we NEED to arrive at SACC by 8.15 p.m, but Maghrib prayers started a little late this time, so we had to wait until it's time to pray before wearing our dress and put our scarves on.

At 7.45 p.m, I am still around Mak Teh's house, chaotically trying to put my shawl on. I am soooo bad at dressing up. I didn't even have the chance to put any make up on...so yeah I looked pretty dull. But, hey, that's what we called as Natural Beauty. Lol.

Thanks to the max, to Abang Firdaus, who speed to the maxx and made us reached the ballroom on time. Upon arriving, we still had to wait for the other 5 members and I just feld inconfidence after encountering with tonnes of girls looking amazingly beautiful just like in Grammy Awards. Ah, damn why I got envy so easy?

Despite my unsatisfaction on how the way I looked, I still think it was a GOOD meaningful event. Technical problems excluded. I found that everyone looked happy and even though we are Science students, we are NOT NERDY at all, that's the good part. I simply like most of the performances especially by a girl named Dayana and her duet partner, Pawan. Lol. K-Pop dance was the best, and got a lot of response from the students.

Oh yeah, my favourite Physics Lecturer, Prof Ahmad, was nominated as the most popular male lecturer for our batch. Wow, he deserved it better than the others but I saw he blushed away. Hahaha. And, the most important part, we got a photo with him.

Prof Ahmad with the rest of us:)

>>>More to come after this after photos uploaded into the hard disk. Stay tuned!<<<

We off on Thaipusam

Not celebrating that Hinduism celebration whatsoever, but currently living in a fake Batu Caves where the stairs are higher than that of Batu Caves itself. So, there's cable cars at batu caves, when will we here, feel to have the same thing? Lol

Mom and dad were forced to visit me here. I told them that I need our digital camera for the Saturday dinner, but it was actually just an excuse. I miss them a lot, and I need to see their faces and just everything about them. I also miss my sister like damn lots because she's my sister...duh :)

But, in the morning, I went play-shopping and window shopping with 2 of my comrades and one lost boy who called in the morning asking whether he could come with us. So, 4 girls and 1 boy went together. Nothing intriguing happened, but just sorting things out for Calvin's endeavours for what to wear for the very dinner. I on the other hand, couldn't find any lipgloss. Out of sold. T.T

The best part of the day was to go to Andalas, seeing my mak teh who looks healthier, alhamdulillah. Khayra Amani will have a new baby sibling soon, and that adds the member to our family. That's mean a YAY! What a great news. Gonna be seeing that new born baby probably by September, told my cousin Kak Intan who is also Khayra lovely mother. 

Watched my cousin mimicking Stacy's Jahat dance and seeing a makeup demo by my cousin to my little sister. I didn't got the chance to have the make up on, because it was time for dinner, where we ate the most delicious chicken rice ever! And we also ate the chicken rice with roasted fish? Erk...

Above all, I am glad my parents came all the way and brought me to Klang. Seeing that little kiddo Khayra Amani was a joy and eating lavish foods is satisfying. And sitting and studying in my room with my boring roommate is a misery. Lol. 

>>p/s: why is my roommate soooo hardworking but sooooo silent? It's  like I live with a wall<<

Sin-Fool

Assalamualaikum dear readers and bloggers whom I rarely meet or whom I NEVER got a chance to meet. Yes, SIN-FOOL is the best title and the best word made up by myself, that could describe how I have been and how life has been.

Test 1 had just ended and for the past 3 days of attending classes, we were given back our test papers and got to know the marks. Only two conditions applied; whether you PASSED the easy paper with a wide smile carved on your face or sighing high for the misery it has brought you with. And, the moment, you were to receive the paper back, was horrifying, more horrifying than doing a bungee jumping.

I have turned into a complete fool for the test 1. I am seriously, an idiotic-over confident person who turned into a SIN-FOOL and couldn't even do a good job for the easiest test. Why GOD? Why? After those moment of burning the midnight oil, after those by hook and crook studies and by those tutorials I managed to finish, I am still stupid? What have got into me?

I failed terribly for Physics and Chemistry and my heart broke into pieces, million or perhaps infinity little pieces when I see those 4 flatters who attained victory that I myself could just have been dreaming of. Over and over, the same 4 flatters gained top spots and I, where am I? Where am I among the 30++ students in the minor group B1? And I supposed I am among the bottom of the rest 1000+++ students of the whole foundation in science here. My comrades who have been sticking to me every now and then, and who have been helping me here and there, had excelled so well. They too did soo perfect, but I? I just merely a failure.

It feels so bad, when people expecting you could be good at things but in the end, you are nothing what they expected to be. It feels terrible when seeing your friends frustrating over their so-good-job paper and you just could feel WORST when seeing your poor-stupid-rated paper. It feels like I just wanna go home and curl into a worm, on the comfy bed at home, trying to reminisce of the bad things I have done till GOD puts me in this spot. 

Perhaps, yes, I have been too confident. I admit that once I saw the questions on kinetics, I was just out of my mind. I can't think, I can't do them well. Yes, I also admit that for Physics something came up to my head, and I lost the my conscious control and focus. I just sat still when Prof Ahmad went nearby, seeing what I wrote down. I was totally out at that time. Only after the test ended, I noticed that I have done so many mistakes. I went home and sent a message to my dear professor, apologizing for the careless mistakes and promise to be more alert next time. T.T

Chemistry Paper was the worst this time. First time ever I failed. I am so weak in naming the compounds and answering the easiest Kinetic questions. Together I have sinned a LOT and becoming a fool. I should have locked myself and muhasabah diri. And my luck is like sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga. Nothing seems working. 

Oh yeah, thanks to my friends for consoling me. Yes, like they said, failing now is a GIFT, so that I can be stronger and better. Failing now doesn't mean I will fail forever. And I don't wanna be an epic failure. Now, my life is at the bottom of the round ball. Besides that, mom kept reminding me to just move on, things happened cannot be rewind. She also said that, I performed better in class but performed poorly when it comes to test. T.T

>>p/s: dinner for asasi is on this saturday. gonna reach there by bus after tough discussion with my comrades, but I just wish that I could drive because in that way it will be a lot easier for us to prepare and to ready for that event. It will be such a troublesome to bring along our dress and getting ready at the SACC with the rest of asasi sains students. heh but better not be pessismistic. Plus, I want to donate my blood so badly but couldn't T.T, and doing data and distribution tutorials just like repeating what I did for SPM 2009 lol<<<

Trying harder is not the answer

Assalamualaikum and rise and shine peeps here in the blog-O-sphere. Nothing more fun than the chance to wake up without having to bath early, to prepare early and to just worry about classes, work and the annoying people around you. Don't take the weekends for granted, mind that.

The previous two weeks had been quite a crap for me and I bet many others at Puncak Alam. Just imagine, that for preceding two weeks, the lecturers have been speeding up every topics, and there were Physics Presentation, due date of the submission of the ecology project and the misery of Test 1 for the second semester. I almost smacked out myself because there weren't any of the time spare for me to revise properly and to get a good night sleep. Whenever I shut my eyes to go faraway to New York in my dreams, I would be reminded of the need to go back to lecture notes. What a life.

I supposed that's what University life is all about. Everything must be comprehended on your own, and it is yourself only that could make everything seems fine work out well. My friends and I whom were doing the Ecology Project, together, were backfired with the fact that we actually killed ourselves for doing last minute jobs. Imagine how we were just about to start doing the essays on ecological niche, adaptation of the animals in our so-called make believe ecosystem, the biotic and abiotic limiting factors of it and everything else for the project for the whole one week. And it was on that particular ONE WEEK also, that we had to study like super hard for the test which we were conned right onto our face. I for once, felt so stupid and a fool. 

Test One was a misery for me. I repented. I wasn't supposed to study THAT HARD, and burnt the midnight oil, worrying about how to answer HARD questions. Instead, I should have take note on the simplest parts in which I overlooked them, and just neglecting them, which was the worst thing I ever did. So, basically I thought test one gonna be a blast. The questions I assumed to be tough and tricky and what not, except for Biology. But, in the end, they were the reverse of what I assumed. 

Physics

-Thought that I did my best remembering the formulas and understanding the concept, but I guess, I was wrong. I did my worst for the EASIEST physics test and I should note that Prof Ahmad had already told me in Facebook that it is gonna be an ANTIDOTE for the other paper. I studied like hell, but then nothing seems working. I flunk in understanding the concept of Doppler Shift. When two cars at the same speed and moving at the same direction, no doppler occurred because Doppler Shift depends on the difference in speed. I failed to master the concept of light, spectrum of colours, the colour that bend the LEAST is RED not violet. I also unable to hinder my careless mistakes, in which, the question asked for HOW LONG, instead, I became erratically confident, and answered HOW FAST. Every mistakes I did make me feel terrible. How can I did that to myself on the easiest paper ever. Perhaps, I could never perform well due to excessive nervousness.

I should be sorry and apologize to my dear prof ahmad. Physics is fun and easy, but I was just too careless. T.T

Biology

-Studied almost everything including circulation and I think I did my best, but turned out worst as well. Many answers I wrote at the first attempt were the right ones, instead, after reluctance of hearing to the heart, I quickly replaced the answer with foolishness. SHAME ON ME!

Mathematics

-Should have been more careful, and don't take the examples in tutorials for granted.

Chemistry

-Same like Physics, it was the EASIEST test, but then, I flunked badly. Reaction kinetics were the worst I did, and I am just too frustrated by how I perform. I can answer the questions in tutorials, but during the test, I was just drawn away by carelessness and over confidence. I wanna re-sit for the test so badly. T.T

Physic Presentation

-On OHM's Law, and I think my group did our best. The evaluators seemed to understand our presentation and accepted it with a smile. I am grateful that we weren't tested with nasty-harsh-superduper tough Physics application questions during the presentation. Only that one of the evaluator asked what type of wire we used, and we almost got it right, by implementing the formula of Resistance and resistivity of the conductor. 

I was amazed by how my friends, Nina Zulkifli and Fahmi Faisal did their AWESOME job at KMB for being among those who attained honour rolls. Despite all the hardcore subjects they learn and the over-excessive activities to do on one go, they still manage to shine. I envied them for some reason, but I knew that different people have different potential. Congratulations with the deepest joy from me here who can't do better than you guys, but could just be proud of having such amazing scorers as friends. Their dreams for overseas studies almost there, revealing, and I, still struggling but still flunk and flunk and just couldn't be awesome. Perhaps not my luck, or perhaps, I should go for other options  I just have to be normal and go with the flow like grasses on the wide field ready to be grazed by cows and goats. 

they who give me joy and the meaning of friendship at Puncak Alam. They are awesomers.

Study hard is not the answer to do well. Sometimes, relaxing works better. Keep calm also works better. Or perhaps I can shine no more.

>>P/S: going home after an intense week is a please. And, I am thinking of the next agenda to keep back on track. I lost. Plus, I am dissappointed that everytime I need to go home, there are always important events at campus. Today, USM's medical faculty is dropping by to give a talk. But, I can't go because I need a break from that place and boredom<<

Muet And Miscellaneous

"Seriously, I expect more from you, Dayana", wrote a friend of mine on yesterday's chat. He thought, and many friends here, expected that I could get band 5 at least, but yeah, don't expect high on me, because you would end up backfired. To be frank, I got band 4 for MUET End 2010, and I felt relieved. Alhamdulillah to Allah The creator, for HE the only one who knows the best for HIS servants.

So far I knew two guys from UiTM Puncak Alam who got band 5. They are awesomers whom need no more to be bragged. Congrats to all of MUET candidates who passed it well, and eligible for the degree programmes. Let's work hard on the real examinations and assignments at college for now on, and surpass the CGPA needed.

Been away from blogging not because I was reluctant to do so, but I was actually hindered by bad server of the Internet. What to do? I am not afford to buy a broadband for now, seriously, my allowances given by the KPT decreased bit by bit. Paid the RM475 fees and only several amount was left. Then, there is other thing that needed to be paid, so meaning I can't really use that money to spend on leisurements and entertainments which is kinda frustrating. The more you live, the more things you need, the more things you want, but sadly, most of them have to be traded with cash. What a life. That's why, you can't say money is not important. Even to buy yourself a yard of cloth when you die, need some money.

Anyhow, in the midst of relief after accomplished doing my physics first presentation, now come the other one. I thought I had passed it, and that's for the last time, but I was wrong. Tuesday, I need to present the OHM'S law experiment, done the slides with the girls but then, after rejoicing, I remembered that I haven't revise for upcoming test on Thursday, which consisting of 7 chapters to cover, and I went ballastic. Covering so many topics in less than a week is a crazy job but still, I have to make it work. Not to mention, my roommate whom has always been on her desk, studying like hardcore, came to seek me for physics, but then I realised, even though I got the answer right, I already forget the solution. How pathetic.

Wow. already 1 am, and here I am, jotting down a journal, without the pursuit to scratch the notes for physics and chemistry, in which chemistry test is on Tuesday. I lent my notes and tutorials on hydrocarbon to a groupmate, but then his girlfriend called, telling me that that friend of mine's Iphone was out of battery, so he can't reply any of my messages and calls, so making me waiting like for 30 minutes at the dining hall and almost went furiously annoyed. I am pissed because sometimes, doing good brings some sort of discomfort in our lives. Like what I faced, giving someone notes that I myself should be reading and conquering, and ending up being pissed because I can't get back the notes immediately. Everything is just increasing my hatred towards everything else.

Oh, until then, you will see me brag and mutter and merepek for more after this. Don't worry. Just read, about how those computer and Internet geeks are in the search for a program that could detect whether any social networks or webs account owners who died and letting their pages to be neglegted arouse curiosity of mine of the progress. It would be great, if one day we can know easier if something emergency like that happened. 

Semester Breaks Open Its Curtain

Salam everybody here in blogosphere. Wow, it's now 25th December 2010. Only a week left for 2010 to end, and the odd 2011 to appear. Feels like only yesterday, I went home, and celebrated the joy of the returning of Mom and Dad from the Holy Land, after they performed their pilgrimage. Now, it's a year already.

I have a week of the college off, in correspond to the Christmas Holiday and New Year. Feels different since it is the first time in my life, being engrossed with so many works and tutorials and assignments and the list goes on during this holiday joy. Passed years had saw me rejoicing the holiday with preparation to get back to school. But, now that has become a history that would never return. I am an adult. Different from a kid. 

The past weeks had me enduring college phase like it used to be. Been to aquaria at KLCC last week with dear girls from UiTM, brought me with happiness aside from tire. I encountered true friendship while I were with them. Went there, for our ecology project was somewhat terminated some stressed inside the brain. Depression level dropped when laughter conquered our souls. Being a University student had actually been useful to us. At Aquaria, one of the staff there was gladly became our guide throughout the trip. Telling us all about the animals and helped us capturing nice photos had certainly benefited us. He also brought along the Aquaria Mascot (A fluffy shark) to get a picture with us although the place was excessively crowded with people. See kids! Be a university student to feel this experience. People respect you and wanna help you for your project, unlike when we are school kids. 

Not to mention, many other things actually happened. One is of course, I had endured the terrifying Physics Laboratory Presentation on the Experiment of Convex Lens. It gave a sense of relief, after all the tough and tricky questions asked by the evaluators upon completion of the presentation. Thanks a lot for fellow presenters, like Sara Salleh, Calvin, Dinas and Christine for helping along. And add to the back crew, Azneeza for being such a genius in drawing the lens and apparatus, together with Dina, Azyan, Balqis Isa, and Eliza for stood there giving our group support. I was actually lucky to have Convex Lens as the topic since it was not too complicated rather than the experiment on the speed of sound. I pitied the groups that had to present that experiment to the evaluators. Everything seemed so complicated. I was also lucky because, the evaluators were Ms Julie and Mr Hafiz whom weren't that frightening and stern, even though, I was hoping for Prof Ahmad to actually test us. Lol. I can get killed if my fellow groupmates read this. 

Oh, there is also a frustration upon the coupons system at UiTM. Every asasi students are required to get at least 8 coupons to obtain the full marks of 10 as for cocuriccular activities, which will be added up to 90 percent of the curicculum total marks in order for the qualifications to get the chance for a degree application. So far I have only 4 coupons, even though my housemate already has 8. T.T. Distribution of coupons are not really satisfying and fair. Even if you don't go to any events to get the coupons, instead having friends to snatch some for you, that would be fine. Some of them who become the coupons' distributor haven't been trustworthy too. They saved up some of the coupons and give them to their fellow friends and housemates and so on. See. How dirty the game is played? I attended about 2 events last semester which I supposed to get coupons but rather, I went home empty handed. What a life. 

Looks like I have to find for another 4 events to attend, to fulfill the coupons collections. And, yeah, Test 1 is looming, that's why we are piled with homeworks and so on. At least, we could have something to force us to revise, instead returning home and luring around. I also heard that the scholarship money are already banked into our accounts. I feel so sad seeing the remaining amount of my previous semester's scholarship. I didn't spend well, boo me! 

Yesterday, walking down the aisle returning from Raflessia II after visiting a friend, my former elementary classmate greeted me after such a long time. He is in the same lecture with me but we acted ignorant, and yesterday, when he asked me something, I went perplexed. Wow, at last someone recognized me.

>>>p/s: there're just too many mechanisms to be memorized and understood. Pray hard for strength in memorizing and strength in patience<<<

Semester Two Chapter 4

Chapter 4 finally indicated that it has been a month so at Puncak Alam for semester two. Wow! Feels like a flash of time, but that's good isn't it. And, only been there for a month, everything we learn seems so fast. Like Biology, I can drool of boredom since the lecturer kept on reading the slides all over again, and without proper explanation on the topic. Baik duk bilik baca notes sendiri. Lol.

I know that for semester 2, that Biology almost mimics what came out in Form 5 syllabus, but intense versions of them can't be THAT simple. Again, I miss Ms Jamie the lecturer. Where in the heck of this world, will someone can teach Biology like she did?

Physics on Light, are just irresistible. No kidding, that light is the worst topic of Physics that I would ever master. Why in the whole life world, my roommate said that I am good in it? I worked hard to make it cling to the memory and to the power of understanding, but seriously, coming to lenses, wow you will wanna puke. And plus, Prof Ahmad, kept telling about extra classes that we need to attend, or in other words lectures that many fall on public holidays need to be rescheduled. Maybe after this, I can't even have weekends, since Physics will fall on those lovely short breaks. T.T. (I'll just consider it as a trial test for upcoming oncalls perhaps?..lol)

Mathematics just came to chapter 2 the vectors. No play with vectors. Even though, some thought they could be easy, but think again. Oh maybe I am the only one who think that way? Matrices are still not being able to master. Row of Echelon and Elementary Row Operations are just simply annoying. Solution of matrices to determine the unique, infinite and none solution add up the burdens. Thanks God, I am on still on track T.T. However, tutorials are increasing, but still the old ones aren't done. How am I gonna do them well?

Just met Nadia Hakim Nasseri, who happens to be Farhana Zain's friend in the lift. She was shy. Hahaha. Glad that I met someone in facebook for real. Plus, I just knew that Jalan Empat High School was the best SPM 2009's daily school. Wow. Met an ex PALAM student who happened to be Vignaa's schoolmate (all from Jalan Empat) in Facebook. Cool add some more mutual friends. That friend on the other hand, is in the same place as Fahmi Faisal, meaning they are now in KMB. Looking through his pictures, saw one more guy I know from UiTM Palam as well. Gosh. I made it complicated eh? Whatever.

This whole week has been both okay and horrid. The horrid thing is that, I slipped over on the way to the Raflessia Cafe' since the floor was slippery due to rainwater. It was embarrassing. I quickly got up, and made the cool face and fades away before more people see me. Lol.

Before I am off, take a look at this super seriously funny Ikea Catalog of 2010. Plus, when I saw the news about siblings underaged doing sex and recorded it on the phone in Metro Harian, it aroused the feeling of frighten and annoyed. Are kids too obsessed with sex? Wow, what a world. Pray hard people. For the end is not far.

And it went by faster than I thought

Another week before a week off for Jingle Bell and Santa Claus celebration. How fast time flew. So far, thank Allah, that I already feel like home here. Friends are like families and sisters, the bedroom is so cosy than anything you could wish for, the weather has always been fine and nice and the breezy wind that I breathe in, feels so chill and comfy. It's fine here after all.

On the 22nd January, a Grand Dinner like I always bragged about will be held at the SACC. The masquerade theme has been cancelled. Of course, would it be relevant wearing baju kurung and a mask? Unless, one is willing to spend more on suitable dresses, then it would be fine, but yeah, as for us the Malaysians, that theme could be kinda awkward to be comprehend. At last, the theme is now on traditional and dashing. Traditional as for the ladies, and dashing for the guys. The protocol on the attire for the night had been given, and yeah, tutup aurat and be modest is A MUST!

Supposedly, by next week I am not gonna stay at Puncak Alam and going to somewhere called the Holy Land. Mom has been so happy for the plan. But, this morning, Allah shows us how HE the Almighty has the capability to just make it not coming true. The entry for the Holy Land, is now close for any visitors due to maintenance purposes. I on the other hand, who already passed the letter to the Director of the Asasi, feel jaded. I don't know how should I tell the rest about the cancellation. But, I know, it is no worth of keeping inside, so I told my best friend, Dina. I feel ashamed because I bragged about the plan already, but at the same time, feeling despair because after everything seemed to run so smoothly, then nothing could I hold for, at the very last. Astaghfirullahalazim, for only Allah knows best and the Greatest.

Anyways, gonna do the things that needed attention. Piles of work still undone, due to the overslept momentum of the very author. Still I am working on the very hard as I could. 

>>>p/s: Biology and Physics are now speeding at the speedest speed!! Hope everything will be just fine. Ameen<<<

Semester Two Event

I feel responsible (hehehe) to announce that Foundation in Science of Universiti Teknologi Mara Puncak Alam is organising this Masquerade Mystery event. Bunches of thanks for the committee members who work days and nights, to ensure the event will go well. And most of the head committees are my groupmates, like Fikri Syafiq and Thaqif Sufyan and many others. They are very hardworking and really great for doing all these. However, still, many won't go, but yeah I on the other hand already passed my name with my fellow tablemates for the very dinner. Now, searching for a suitable dress and of course  A MASK. I found this costume shop which look very interesting, but meh, it is located at Malacca T.T. So far meh?

>>>p/s: I hope it will be a night to remember. hehehe:) See you there asasian!:D<<<